lalalas~nth much.2dae oral exam..both eng and chinese lorhx.siaanz.hols oredi still hav to go bac to skool ferr oral..for the chinese oral..i even asked the examinar with the very very huge you-noe-wad how to say the word hamster in chinese...denn sommor ferr eng..i went out of point fer the conversation thingy..aarrgghh..cant believ myself..anywaex..got the klass to sign the petition regardin the miss see thingy..and it was mor dan one page long.nahx.juz hope tan will change her mind..aarrgh..tinkin of the idea of doin a blog fer miss see and fer 2e2..dunnoe la..nowadays feel very sianz..lookin forward to klass picnic and 6a gatherin?hmm. at least can hav som funn rather dan beiin cooped up at home..i wan to go escape theme park!! but verii ex worx..siiaaz..haven started on hmk yet..too lazi..haiz..gtg eat liaox..byeees!=)
noooo!
Sunday, May 29, 2005 2:36 PM
ok.i really hate dis.i hate the way dis skool system is workin.i hate the reasons why dis skool muz mak miss see leave us.i hate to see miss see cry.i hate to hear all those useless words lik'the new teacher might be better.'i hate all dis.i hate dis damn helpless feeling!waddahell.im tryin so damn hard to accept dis damn stupid fact but SHIT!u noe wad?its so DAMN HARD!!!i really really really dont wan miss see to leave us!!!!and i hate dis helpless feelling..lik we cant do anitin at all.we're her students and we are juz so helpless!i thot i can get over it soon and mayb i can.but now...its really veri veri difficult..i keep thinkin of all the memories 2e2 had wif herr..lik wen she alwaez hav to stop in the middle of her sentence in klass to say'carine,pls.thank you.'so tad she can kick shen min's chair..haix..onlli the 2e2 peeps wiill understand the meanin..and she alwaez say 'dont say i veri law saw but i still hav to say' but now..we cant hear it any mor..SHIT!!!!!I HATE DIS!!!she has onli been wif us for onli HALF A YEAR for goodness sake.its DEFINITELY not enough!arrrgghhhhhh!!i dun tink mdm lau and miss loo will change miss tan's mind.miss tan hwee pin.i noe she muz hav her reasons fer changin our teacher.but I DUN GIV A DAMN TO HER REASONS.I hav REASONS too why miss see shld continue to stay in 2e2.der muz be other ways dan changin our teacher right in the middle of the year rite!dis is so dumb.dumb.dumb.dumb.ok.im emotional.so?girls hav the right to BE emotional.aww.too bad.girls hav the right to cry wen the teacher says she's leavin.girls hav tthe right to go find miss loo and mdm lau ferr help wenn we are really helpless n sad.wadeva.im sayin weird things now.i dun noe me anymor.u can say im bein so emotional juz over a teacher.but miss see is NOT ONLY A TEACHER.arrghh.i tink only 2e2 pupils will REALLY understand.i dunnoe fer som if the boys..arrgghh...shuminx,amanda,cassandra,peiying,eunice,huiyun,melissa,gui ru,joycelyn,clarice,wan zhen,,cinny,carine...we'll really miss miss see ritex..we cried..either out loud or in our hearts..or mayb both..guess wad?we'll all in the same boat.how united.im sayin really strange things now.but i noe u gurls will understand...i dunnoe anitin animor.i onlly noe i am missin miss see so badly..so DAMN bad.i hate dis feelin.i hate.=((((((((((
sobx
Friday, May 27, 2005 5:00 PM
sobx.dis is gonna be a sad post.so if u cant bear dis emotional breakdown of mine,dun read.no offense.sobx.it is veri veri hard to accept the depressin fact tad miss see is gonna leave us..no.its WORSE than hard.she onli teached us ferr less dan a year and now she has to leave?!?noooooooooo!!!she's the best teacher i had ever had since i entered zhonghua.and i tink most of my klassmates tink so too.she reali tries to understand us not onli as a teacher but aso as a close fren..she liks everyone to be cheerful in the mornin wen we greet her and will keep askin us to repeat the greetin until evryone is smiling..she takes time and effort to understand the klass and help us in any way she could.even the most rebeliious one cried wen she announced tad she's leavin.we are realii bonded and attached to her.we hav all oredi adapt ourselves to her teachin methods and ways and now u wan us to start all over again wif the new teacher?for goodness sake,its our streamin year and we're not supposed to deal wif dis kind of emotional stuff..and we feel comfortable tellin her our feelings and secrets..we really cant bear to part wif her..even tho we can still see herr at skool..its not the same anymor.sobx.todae wen she announced dis,she started to cry and soon almost all the gurls were cryin..i tink nobody else except ferr 2e2 peeps will understannd how we feel..we hugged miss see and a group of us,all sobbin lik hell..went to find mdm lau to ask fer help..we dun wan to giv up a single chance or hope..even if its onli 1%..mdm lau was understandin...and said she will help us speak up durin the staff meetin todae..but she told us not to be too hopefull..den we wen to find miss loo..she gave us a big talk bout how to let go..wadever.she still said she will brin our suggestions to the meetin too..but she aso told us not to be too hopefull in order not to giv us false hopes..but i reali reali hope miss see will stay..i noe im bein reali emotional here but it was the first time i hav seen 2e2 breakin down..even those ppl i do not expect.the feelin is realy veri terrible..im not exxageratin or anitin..at least e2 gurls can understand..miss see,we will reali miss u so much!!!!!=((......its supposed to be a happy day fer all of us cuz its the last day of skool..but now...i guess lik wad amanda says..all good things muz cum to an end..
lalalas~
Thursday, May 26, 2005 6:21 PM
bleahx.2daae so busii worx..spend the entire dae doin all those useless files wen the teachers dun bother llookin at dem..siianx..den gort photo-takin ferr us cldds peeps..and i had to wait ferr fiona outside herr klassrm ferr lik moxrr den 30 mins..cuz herr chinese teacherr let dem off late cuz she wans to continue tellin finish herr story to the klass.STORYTELLING TIME!wa laos.ii waiit dem loong lehx..ok fiona.u can start apologizin to me and sayy how guilty and apologectic u r now..hahahas..kkaes..denn the photo taken was so stupid lorhx..i tink im gonna llook so weird..butt so happi no need to sit on the long chair in front..i standin with fionn at second row..STANDIN lehx..hahahax..cuz its lik everytime photo takin i alwaex hav to sit in front ones..so zi bei..so short..waahhhhs...ok fiona.so ure taller den me.but its onlii dis tinee winny bit onli lorhx..lik juz 1cm liddat lorhx..so can stop rejoicin over u bein taller dan me by 1cm.hahahahax..ure stiill SHORT.lik mie.aww.too bad fio!hahahas..kk.stop laming..hmm.arrghh..shld i go ferr the yes933thingy anot..arrghh.last dayy liaox..i tink bein a dj quite funn..hehees..bleahx.2moro last day of skool be4 the hols!yaays!will miss som e2 peeps!!hahax.*muacks*
hmm.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005 8:48 PM
hmm.dennis chew..aso known as zhou chong qing the dj cam to our skool todae..hahax..and he was givin a talk bout bein a dj and all those related thingys..woos.how funn..and he was veri funny..althou he's short.=p anywaex..me and shuminx had dedicated a song to our family,ms see and aso our klass...heheex..next tues 8.30 to 9 muz liisten to YES933FM..hahax..gott both of our recorded voice..yupz..hahas..a bit weird larhx..but quite fun..and chong qing was verii funny..and aso lame..hahaaz..k.stop.ehs.holidaex hurri upp cum!!budden lik got so mani activities liddat..got 2 projects..class outin..6a gatherin=D..CIP ferr cldds..the cycle of life thingy ferr science..hav to go overseas..mayb hav to go fer the course on the dj thingy..if my mum is willin to payy $250..mwahahaa..sigh..dunnoe larhx..i nort veri scared of the parents meet lehx..dunnoe. ehz..nowadays tryin to make up fer lost time and cleared things upp..tryin very hard..bleahx..hmm.my probation fert counciller gonna end dis week..yaaaayy!!!finally.i tink i gonna quit..dunnoe..shld b bahx..cannot stand som ppl's face anymor..hees..kkaes..crapp enough and its time to go!!weeees!x)
yawns
Sunday, May 22, 2005 1:51 AM
ehs.yeaps.wentt with the hmt frenz to chinatown derr to drink tea.haiix.sound borrin ritex.part of the post-exam activity.so we got no choice larhx..budden actualli the whole thingy quite nice..except the part wer dis china man was derr talkin bout some history bout tea or sometin.i dun understand wad the hell he's sayin.AND i almost dozed off..other dan tad..i realli enjoyed it cuz we get to pao cha..as in tad kind of olden days wer ppl use the old-fashioned method to pao cha..the cha the smell damn nice lehx..and we can aso xiang shou air-con..so shuang worx..mayb next time will go derr wif frens..sure no regrets one..hahaha..wo hao xiang zai zuo advertisement liddat..=p bleahx.i nowadaes veri veri moody..aarrgghh..forget it.oh ya.muz thank fiona.lol.i tink i thank u fer mor dan 5 times liaox..hees..i lik to hear the song 'JOURNEY' by angela zhang wen im damn depressed..hmm.here r the lyrics.sobx.=(
Its a long long journey Till i know where im supposed to be Its a long long journey And i dunnoe if i can believe When shadows fall and block my eyes I am lost and know that i must hide Its a long long journey Till i find my way home to you
Many days i've spent Drifting on through empty shores Wondering whats my purpose Wondering how to make me strong I know i will falter i know i will cry I know you'll be standing by my side Its a long long journey And i need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands I dont even know why i do the things i do When pride builds me up till i cant see my soul Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause its a long long journey Till i feel that i am worth the price You paid through me on calvery Beneath those stormy skies
When satan mocks and friends turn to foes It feels like everything is out to make me lose control Cause its a long long journey Till i find my way home to you. To you...
yupz.tads all.will insert dis song somedae..ok..will end here..adios!x)
=))
Thursday, May 19, 2005 4:14 PM
woots!! e2!e2!e2!e2!hahahx..yupz.todae got interclass compeitetion..basketball match...weeeeeeee!!so funn..no need to go ferr lessins..peiying,eunice,carine,cassandra and shuminx representin our klass ferr gurls..duh.den the boys lehx..is jin fei,clement,erusha,chester and shen min.shen min damn pro lorhx..oh yar!ming kiat is the reserve hahax..he run so fast wen his turn lehx..den everyone was lik screamin'ming kiat!!!wo men yong yuan zhi chi ni!!!'LOL...we cheer ferr both our teams lik hell lorhx..cheer until throats pain..den the boys lose to 2e6..booohoooo...budden the gurls won!!champion!weets!!the score difference sommor more dan 20 lehx..so pro horhx..especialli peiying and eunice..basketball players worx..hahahx.=D..somemor in the student centre me,jonathan,clarice,cinny,zhen wei and oswell turn off all the lights and said ghost stories..den we still go act out the 'house of wax' thingy by sitting der and not movin and all were starin at the door in horror liddat..haahaha..lamers..somemor we still point at each other in the dark and stay in tad positions..den its lik clarice was pointin her finger at me and starin at me and i was doin the same...den afterwards wen we came out of the student centre..clarice's finger which she used to point me juz now has scratches..so eery..and she didnt even cut herself or anitin lorhx..i tink my index finger veri spooky lehx..hahahx..cuzi used tad to point at her and den her finger becum liddat..somemor tad injured finger is the finger she used to point at me lorhx....so spooky!!ahhh..hahax..better stop here before i freaked out..hees..lurve ya ppl..byex!=p
saddened
6:41 AM
hmmm. todae ms see say mayb she will not b able to teach us next semester.sobx.so unfair.y muz liddat.i mean,ms see is nice eand everytin.plus she tries to realli understands ppl too.and aso she not tad strict.haha.later the new teacher is miss long den we die liaox.lolx.i dun wan ms see to go lehx.she realii veri nice lehx.sigh.anywaex,todae someone's bdae worx.den mo mo ren so happy lehx.hahaha.yeaps.miss see taught us the 'shaker' thingy the actions todae.haix.clap,clap,right,left,right..LOL.lame.bleahx.budden she damn nice ritex.hahax.mayb we shld giv he r a faewell parrty!hahhax..i nw act lik she leavin us liddat.so sad.hahax.erps.boony dunnoe hw to spell 'enthusiastic' lehx.so i spell ferr him lorhx,haha.boony,u so un-chim,unlik christopher.hahax,no wonder yr eng fail.lOlx,nahx.jokin onlii horhx.=)..hmm. todae lik notin interestin happen..so sianz de..hav to go opposite the shop buy bubble tea liaox.hahax..kkaes.takkares ppl!! buiazz..x)
nahx
Wednesday, May 18, 2005 4:36 PM
hmmm. todae ms see say mayb she will not b avle to teach us next semester.sobx.so unfair.y muz liddat.i mean,ms see is nic eand evrytin.plus she tries to realli understands ppl too.and aso she not tad strict.haha.later the new teacher is miss long i die liaox.lolx.i dun wan ms see to go lehx.she realii veri nice lehx.sigh.anywaex,todae someone's bdae worx.den mo mo ren so happy lehx.hahaha.yeaps.miss see taught us the 'shaker' thingy the actions todae.haix.clap,clap,right,left,right..LOL.lame.bleahx.budden she damn nice ritex.hahax.mayb we shld giv he r a faewell parrty!hahhax..i nw act lik she leavin us liddat.so sad.hahax.erps.boony dunnoe hw to spell 'enthusiastic' lehx.so i spell ferr him lorhx,haha.boony,u so un-chim,unlik christopher.hahax,no wonder yr eng fail.lOlx,nahx.jokin onlii horhx.=)..hmm. hav to go opposite the shop buy bubble tea liaox.hahax..kkaes.takkares ppl!! buiazz..x)
yaayy
Monday, May 16, 2005 6:39 PM
kkaes.im finally updatin after fr lik.so long.haix..changed the blogskin..thx to fionas..hahax..u rawkk!=)..bleahx.exams juz over nehx..no shuang..can enjoy liaos..but tad ms see sayy wad we hav to go thru the papers 2moro..sianzz.2dae went feer some stupid cross country at macrichee(spelled sometin liddat lars)..den it rained..shoik lehx..but the teachers still wan us to tak a 15 mins BIG walk arund the reservoir..bo liaos..but overall ok larhx..its still a waste of time standin under the rain..so later on shuminx and me went to j8 walk walk nehx..notin much de..aso neber see any 6a frenz..haiz..miss dem so much! hahahs..den later on shuminx cum moi huse watch dolphin's bay!! woohoooo!dolphin's bay rawkks!!! hahaha..its reali a great show..hahax..shuminx and i crazyy over it le..oh yarr.i juz remembered.2dae at cross country never saw u..hahaha..i so damn happy man..never see yr irritatin face to spoil my dae..hahs.say somemor will spoil my mood.not worth it lorhx.=)..who cares. oh ya.i wana sae dat COUNCILLOR is NO BIG DEAL lorhx.seriousl,i never was tad proud of it.so stop sayin all those things as thou i lik my councillor tie and position liddat. im juz doin my duty.get it?its no big deal.bleahx.nowadays kep tinkin bout herr.i dunnoe y.but she juz keeps appearin in my mind.very hard to forget lehx.suddenly feel lik tokin to her..hahax..i not les horhx..x) kkaes..gottaaa go liaoz.wanna go watch vcd le..hahax..byeeeeeeee!=D
examms cuminn liaos..arrgghh
Wednesday, May 04, 2005 5:15 PM
okaes.im updatin.after so mani ages.haha.erhz..2dae gort home at around 4.00 sometin..cuz i need to stayy bcc in skool ferr the life science report thingyy..which i owe miss tan ferr so damn loong..aso got bacc our english ca1 markss..total got 63.1..same as ian..hahax..yikkes..exams cumin liaoz..muz mak diss post short lehz..hahaz..i dis is not call guai..is call lin shi bao fuo jiao..i stupid stupid thot yesterdaee was my hmt exam..den i dumb dumb go studii lik mad..den 2moro go skool i go findd huiting den she tell me i see wronglyy..aarrrggghhhhhh!!!!! studii untill so late dunnoe ferr wad..i so blur nowadaes..lolxx..kkaes..i gtgs studii liaox..hahaz..i'll probabli slack again afterr awhile.hahax.byeeeeeee!!!x)
woohoos
Sunday, May 01, 2005 3:01 PM
hahaha..nw so obsessed wif dis song 'journey' by angela zhang..u can hear it in the 7.30 channel u show 'Dolphin's Bay'..so damn nice..its lyrics are so meaningful and im gonna put dis song in my blog soon..if someone can teach me how..hahax..anywaes,i juz bought the 'love at dolphin's bay' cd todae n it costs my parents $14 sometin...but on one condition tad i muz onlii watch it after the exams..*sob*..hahas..no choice larhx..later deyy scared i get addicted to it..sigh..hehee..cant wait to watch it!=p..actualli i wanted to buy angela's album..im not a fan of hers..budden the songs inside quite nice..but it cost $20 worhx..so ex..my parents sure wont allow one..i wanna save moneyy so i can buy it..hahax..oh yarr!! jonathon chung a.k.a hippo a.k.a piggy 's bdae is ytd!! happi belated birrthdaee piggy!!! hahas..paiseh no pres..x)..gary chew's bdae aso pass liaos..forgot to wish him happi birthdae..hahahas..so i represent boon hao and me to wish u a verii happi belated birrthdaee curry chew!!! hahhas..jkjk..paiseh aso no pres..x)..even if i hav aso veri hard to pass it to u two rites..one in cat high one in anderson..haixx..kkaes..gtgss..buiazz..nitex!!=D
aarrgghh
2:48 AM
yoz..got bac moi eng and geo test paperr..ferr eng..the highest in klass is 36/50..ian got it..aarrgghh..pro sia.the paper damn harrd..budden i got 34 larhx..quite ok las.considerin tad the highest mark is 36..hahas..geog lehx..didnt score too wells la..waaaa..yeaps.ders dis prize-givin thingy on fri hav to stay bac untill so late..so damn tired..juz for tad certificate and 15 dollars book vouncher.and i dont even go to tad bookshop.hahas.anywaes.sometin LAME and IDIOTIC thingy happened on thurs..we were in the com lab durin eng lessin wif maureenn..den i was quein behind him to get the cd rom fm maureen..juz becuz i stand behind him..he has a need to go exclaimed,saying OMG so loudli..purposelii wanna let mie hear..OMG.pls dont be so immature..try not to show it even if u r larhx...juz bcus someone u dont lik stands behind u and u act lik i juz molested u or sometin..i didnt even touch a single pathetic strand of yr hair lorhx..crazii..u tink i so lik to stand behind u?pls la.stop bein so damn childish.make such a big fuss lik im gonna touch u liddat..*vomits*..since u r juz so disgusted of STANDIN IN FRONT OF ME,i let wai hern cut queue and stand between us..ha.imagine yr joy.u turned arund and said in dis gurl,childish,immature,loud,sissy-lik voice..'wai hern! U SAVED MY LIFE! THANK YOU!' wa laos.pls larhx..u act lik wai hern is the hero and u r the damsel in distress liddat..LOL.wai hern even told u not to be ridiculous..how childish can u get??u tink im affected greatli by yr words..sorii to disappoint u but i dont giv a damn to childish ppl and their chidish words...i dont heck bother about hus gonna SAVE YR LIFE and all those shit..cuz its wastin my time gettin bothered by immature ppl..juz bein kind and giv u a last warnin to stop living in tad chidish manner of yrs and GO BAC TO KINDERGARDEN! lol.actin all gossipy and sissy-lik aint gona help u in yr character any better u noe..lik DUH. it wil onli mak ppl hav an image of u tad u r verii gossipy and sissy and hav a big mouth...which i muz admit is totalli true of u..hahahas..dont u get it by nw? mayb chidish ppl need morr time to get these stuff bcuz their brains are crammed wif chidish stuff..WAKE UP FRM YR IMMATURE DREAM. wadeva. i'll juz wait to see wen u will wake up and take a good look at yrself in the mirror.u chose to believ wad ****** and **** *** tell u tads fine.dont tink i dunnoe wad u typed in yr nic. i saw. and stop sayin i backstab u as an excuse.by sayin tad i suck is aso backstabbin fer yr information.i was the one hu alwaex tak the initiative to call u juz becuz u can get free calls.i was the one hu had to beg and plead wif u to juz go opposite n eat wif me or walk to the bus interchange.dont act lik im askin u such a big favor k. u act lik im despo liddat.call u everydae to chat.pls la.u dont value tad much to me lorhx.u make me write all these in my blog. u said u r not the person hu takes the first initiativ..so dis means its my fault?tink bout it seriously. look,i dont realii hate u tad much kaes..i juz wanna let u noe tad the fault does not entirely lies wif me alone..if u still tink im at total fault,even after after all i said,den fine. sori.. happi...? ...
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
