cbox is offline for maintanance.we will be back shortly.hahaa..all blogs usin cbox has the same situation..so apparantly im not the onli one..hmms.todae went fer two little excursion.woots!no lessins yars!so we went to the NEWater thingy and the malay heritage..malay heritage nicer cuz got food to eat..muahaha.got to play som instruments and stuff..and learn a little bit of weird malay long-time-ago martial art stuff...hahas..weewees!the bus trip der so fun mans.haix..john yeo aka pok pok was in the bus wif us..lols..poky poky poky poky pok pok pok pok..LOL..alot of songs and lame stuff goin on arnd in the bus..mostly by the assholes behind..lols..jkjk..played zhong ji mi ma..mwahahahha..huiyun still owe us a dare!hahaha..kiss ****** and hug **** **!hahahaha..lame dare mans..shld ask her sing the chewy chewy chewy chewy chew huiyun..ernest ernest ernest leong..hahaha..jkjk..or mayb u shld sing tonghua.lols.tad freaks u out rites...can imagine yr grossed out expression lehs.lols..oh ya.tad stupid ongie so extra lors..purposely act so strict budden didint work..at the end malu himself onli..haha..so skinny sommor..head alr touchin the bus ceiling liaos.and he's not even standin straight.ha.loser.kkaes.sacastic sia..tomoroo hav literary evening!woohooos!can skipped tuition!mwahhaa.den can sit under the night sky and watched show wif frens..yaaay!cant wait..still remembered our first literary evening..waaaah..time passes so fast mans..so mani things happened..hmmms.haha.next saturday gort KCPPS funfair lehs!so callin out fer all 6a peeps to go!frm 9 to 4..hahaas..miss som girlfrens too much..wan to see dem badly mans..hahahha.ooh lala.gort a cute present frm miss see!ernest de present cuter..but so girl girl type one..no wonder miss see gav him..muahaha..anywaes.thanks miss see!althou u most likely wont ever cum across dis blog in yr life..hahhaa..lalala..gtg ppl.sayonara my dearest frens!lols.u all rawks!=))
be yourself day
Wednesday, June 29, 2005 7:44 PM
be youself day.ure supposed to be yourself.den wads wif all those restrictions on clothes and accessories?haha..kiasu skool..so yupz.went up to stage todae wif amanda and gui ru..makeup fer me and gui ru was done by the one and only....lee shu min!!!lols..thank you!haha..den we were backstage and saw mr yeo's disgusting outfit and bra..sort of freaked out mans.i mean..i noe he wan to make us laugh by actin as a sissy and dressin as one..but its a bit overdo dont u tink?and he sommor stuff apples inside his bra.ewws.and he took it out at the middle of the teacher's drama to eat..den stuff back the half eaten apple into his bra..wa laos..gross lehs..hahaha..and no muscles one lor him..hahha..fats here and der..haha..but the play quite ok la..yeaps!miss see so cute..lols..two ponytails and wearin our skool girl uniform..so student-like.haha..denn tad stupid leongy aso las.see her feel so sians alr..see miss chan better..cheobu lors..hahas..den keong keong so weirdly dressed..haha..and backstage he kept byposing in front of us contestants..omg..so freaky lors..haha..dis whole play is all bout bringin the cuteness out frm the teachers mans..ahha..maureen was tokin in tad supposedly-to-be-cute voice..and miss long toos..haha..so old alr still can act cute..hahaha..hmms.reciev som youth day presents frm the teachers..hahah.lollipop!jelly stick!custard cake!lols..act so kindegarden-like liddat..yaaay!got presents!got sweets!lols..2moro is learning carnival liaos..no lessins!muahahaha..shuang sia..yawns..veri tired.busi day mans..eye bags gettin heavier liaos..haix..byebyee ppl..x)
skool reopen liaos
Tuesday, June 28, 2005 7:17 PM
second day of skool.weewees!had the lit drama thingy audition todae at the auditorium..hahaha..seein jin fei aka fei fei and clement act as gay so hilarious..lols..so much cheerin at that part mans..den the singapore idol thingy so dumb lors..me and wan zhen so lame..haha..sing wad fei yu qing song..hahaha..dun tink will get in la..haha..dunnoe..but still..the play quite fun..hehe.hmms.sad news bout dis boy in 1T1 hu drowned and died in his condominium..i dunnoe him..but since he's a zhonghuarian..quite sad for his parents lors..died so young mans..sad..haha..den the stupid talk todae bout the japanese thing so borin lors..i was lik slpin most of the time and tad person keep yakking away..onlin som parts of the video interesting..the torturing by the jap so scary lehs..i freaked out mans.using the cigarrete butt to 'burn' his face..den the part wer the baby was thrown in the air and got stabbed.eww.cruel sia..hmms..miss leong teaches quite boringly lors..i still prefer miss see.and she's givin those irritating faces everyday..den sommor flirt wif the boys..lols..dou ji sui le..haha..hai zhang bu da..lols..tomoro is be yourself day..not tad im excited..juz tad no lessin fer most of the day can alr.haha..
arnd the corner i have a fren in dis great city tad has no end yet the days go by and weeks rush on and be4 i noe it...the year is gone. and i never see my old fren's face for life is a swift and terrible race he noes i lik him juz as well juz by seein tad special smile talk to him everyday then and now we are busy..tired man. tired of playing a foolish game, tired of feelin the pain. "tomorrow!" i say."i will call on (shhh) just to show that im thinking of him" but tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes and the distance between us grows and grows.
jurong east swimming complex
Saturday, June 25, 2005 3:47 PM
haha.so i went to jurong east swimming complex todae.frm lik arnd 4 sth swim until 9 or 10 sth i tink..hahas..down der sth lik wild wild wet..veri veri funn!!!erms.i realli lurve the wave pool mans.damn shuang!haha..yes i was wearin my swimming costume and i saw christopher again.lols.no la..jkjk..we wer got so much fate ones?hahaha.den the wave pool so mani indian guys swimming and dey were lik lookin at the girls pervertly..i mean,no offence to indian fwens..its juz tad those big bunch of guys were actin quite pervertly..der was dis guy hu tried to touch me and made it look lik an accident sommor..ya ewww rites...so i swam away..and he was lik swimming after me..YUCKS..i seriously feel so disgusted..den i kept swimmin away until he was out of view lors..haha..grossed out.so ya..after the wave pool me and my bro and dad went to the lazy river..u noe the 'river' tad goes in one big circle and the water pushes u so tad u do not need to swim..haha..ya..waaaa..so so so relaxing mans.i almost slept wen i was floating on my back.haha..budden so crowded lors.so mani ppl de.deni heard someone saw i dead butterfly at the pool.ok.DEAD BUTTERFLY.ewws.lik imagine swimmin at the pool wen a dead butterfly cum floatin towards yr face.omg.yucks.lols.hmm..den i went to play the coaster.dis big tube wer u sit inside and slide down..ya..den i saw dis real cute lifeguard lehs.hahaa..shuai ge!hahas..girls next time go swimmin must go jurong hors..den pretend to drown..lols..den i aso saw dis man wearin a swimmin costume.MAN.wen does man wear anitin on the top?haha..unless tad person is a girl wif realli short hair and tiny breast..hahaa..ya..it was wen i saw the person doin push-ups at the pool wen i comfirmed tad he is a 100% man..but seriously..seein a man wear a swimmin costume tad looks lik a girl's one is pretty gross.haha.so i told my dad and he said he probably work out.u noe those ppl hu cum to jurong to work out and swim aso la...and dey wear those kind of costume..orh..haha..hmphs.i lost my goggles at the lazy river..cuz the push of the water was quite strong at one point..so i lost my grip and dropped my goggles.arghs.swam 3 rounds arnd the river but cannot find.tink someone took it lars.but i found sth at the other side of the pool toos.haha.a veri sweet keychain which has the words 'i love you forever' on it..haha..muz be som gurl hu got it frm her boyfren and den dropped it accidentally..so i took it.hahaa..sound mean of me hors.haha.i lost my goggles but i found a keychain..haha..nice.oh ya.at the wave pool rites.i saw a fat man.REAL fat man.im not tryin to be mean but statin the facts la.i mean.its not everydae u see a fat man wearin swimmin trunks..LOL..and he was really really fat lors..i cant help starin..hahaha..he shld wear shirt cum and swim wad..haha..but i guess sometimes fats are a beauty rites?lik BOTERO's art..all the curves and stuff..haha..wadeva..lols..hav alot of crap todae huhs..yupz..gtg liaos..had great fun todae.hav to enjoy the last time be4 skool reopens lars.haha.kkaes.nitex! =D
yawns
Friday, June 24, 2005 3:13 PM
ok.its past midnight and here i am updatin my blog.haix.my dad and my bro watchin the batman returns cd.lols.erms.had tuition juz now.haha.den sth dumb happened durin science tuition class.i was lik tryin to see wad the heck my science teacher was writin on the whiteboard cuz his big head was blockin my view.lols.den i got so fed up i said to my fren sittin beside me'his head is blocking me i cannot see!' OOPS.said too loudly and the teacher turn around and look and me.and laugh.so dumb lors.haha.den in the middle of the lessin der was dis realli weird insect hangin down frm my fwen's table which is beside me.yes,hangin.and i totalli freaked out.and its not a spider.it looks lik an ant but its hangin on some invisible string or web in mid air.weird.so i was freakin out while my fwen was laughin at me and tryin to make the strange insect drop to the ground.lols.dumb mans.lalala.ooh im sort of adicted to the 5.00 show yu le 100% by xiao S..da S and xiao zhu now!haha..dey quite funni..esp luo zhi xiang aka xiao zhu aka PIG.haha.so im stayin so late at night now to catch the repeat of dis show todae which is at 1.00 to 2.00.hahaha.yupz.cuz i missed the 5.00 show todae becuz of tuition so boony told me 1.00 is the repeat.yeaps.hmm.saw the jui dui superstar!haha..quite nice..neber really support any contestants la.as in REALLY support la.cuz i tink most of dem are real good mans.and the blind one toos.seriously.haha.kkaes.gtg.erms.1 mor dae till skool reopens.GROANS.=p
sianx
Wednesday, June 22, 2005 12:55 PM
4more days till skool reopens.weees.dis news shld excite ming kiat.saw him yst.i was eatin opposite skool wif amanda accompanyin me.cuz we were gonna meet upp at her huse to do the science report.denn suddenli amanda exclaimed tad lamer's name.ya.so we saw him.wif his hear messed up as usual.play too much volleyball.haix.later goin to hougang mall the library to do the fashion fusion thingy.we haven even started on the paper bag art yet.argh.mux start on it todae.no time le.cuz gort so mani projects.mean teachers.lalala.and me and amanda were listenin yo mary moon and the ketchup song denn i kept pesterin her to dance wif me.mwahahahhaa.so we danced the mary moon thingy and the ketchup thing at the living room.laughin lik mad.haha.lame.but quite fun lars.dance finish liao den amanda turn.she keep pestering me to dance.but i dun wan.haha.one dance is enuf manx.laugh until choke.lols.kkaes.nth muchh. goodbye!
father's daeee! 6A rawks!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005 2:36 PM
alrights.im finally updatin.hmm.went to went to east coast park few days ago to celebrate father's daee!my relatives were der plus my grandparents and ppl.denn my cousin jun yan hu is lik so much younger dan me started dancing away to the music..swaying her body all sexily..haha..she's onli in lower primary..so wadd do u expect?butt kinda envy her rites..not her dance moves la but bein young and free of troubles..not tad im old..but if we were onli in lower primary..we would not noe wadd the hell does hypocrite and backstab means?!?mayb we will tink tad backstab means taking a knife and stabbing somone at the back..and hypocrite is some kind of crab.haha.wadeva.saw real huge and tall sandcastles der.som buildin sandcastles compeition liddat la.very tall lehs..those ppl pro sia.haha.oh yars.the 6a gatherin was cancelled.BOOHOOS.andd the ice skating thingy wif my 6a frens was cancelled too.arghs.miss dem too much le!so loong neber see dem liao.esp my dearest and bestest babes rachel and vivien and jac!!!lols.cant believ hav to wait for another half a year?waaaaaaaaaah.will make sure der will be a gatherin at the end of dis year!yesyes.haha..6a rawks mans!lalalas...goin over to shumins' huse later to do the science project.amanda and guiru toos.muz finish it soon.skool reopening!waddahell lor.sucks rites.unless som ppl wan to faster see ming kiat la.lols.kkaes..gtg..tata!=)
mary mooooooooooon!!x)
Saturday, June 18, 2005 2:49 AM
had tuition todae and i was half awake.the teacher looks and sounds boring.i bet almost evryone dunnoe wadd he's sayin althou dey were noding their heads in fake agreement.and that made the teacher looked pleased wif himself. HA.how interestin the lessin is.ok.this damn holiday is gonna end soon.i hate to admit tad.arrgghh..time juz passes so fast and woo!ure bac to yr klass wif tad heavy bag and neat skool uniform.AND facing a new form and maths teacher in the middle of the year.hooooow GREAT.facing boring LEONGy.bac to the borin old days last year.yawns.i seriously DREAD maths lessin now.unless a miracle happen...which is most likely not to cuz some things juz dont go the way we wan.ohwell.pity 2e2..thou boony muz be rejoicing over the fact..haix..lets wait fer clarice's slap kkaes!lols.the skool is a battlefield.ppl backstab.everything is not the way it seems on the surface.wadeva.tads skool life ya?argh.and the councillor thingy is LAME.but after all the negative comments from me bout bein a councillor..i still STAYED ON.pls call me dumb and stupid.thx.cuz i hate the choices i make..dey all seem to go haywire somhow or another.ok.dis is crap.ok.juz remembered.one of the lyrics of mary moon is:' she dont eat meat but she sure like the bone.' wow.left quite an impression.haa.im lik listening to dis song everydae and still not gettin tired of it.hmm.mary mooooooooooon!haha.anywae ppl.tong hua is seriously rawkin manxd.dis song sound REALLY good wen u turn the volume really loud and listen in a dark room with the air-con on and a pillow to hug.haha.and aso start tinkin of those ppl hu u really love alot and misses badly.tink bout all the hurt u got from backstabbers and hypocrites.and all the dramatic stuff..ok.forget bout it.im out of sorts lately.still,its harmless to try ppl.esp the gurls.lols..gurls are mor emotional.yeaps.oh ya.u can aso try listen to MARY MOON.it sound real good wen u turn the volume DAMN loud and listen wif a couple of frens in the bedroom filled with pillows to throw.not hug.ha.try dancing on the bed as well.and sing along..dragging real long at the part moooooooooooooooon..haha.and wait for yr neighbours' complain.woohoos!hahax..oook.dis is weird.dunnoe wads gotten into me.ohwell!wadeva.stayy funkyy and happyy peeeps!goodnitex!x)
whoa!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005 3:30 PM
yO! im bac frm indonesiaaaa!u ppl can stop missin me nows.hahax..nahx.i went to BATAM..all the beaches and swimmin pools stuff.neber realli gotten to shop..=( but took alot of seashells tad has really cool designs on it and a few hermit crabs and an alive starfish to be brought bac to singapore!mwahahahaha!den ytd me wentt to WILD WILD WET!yeaps.so funn..christopher saiid he saw me derr..i was lik WAD!hahaha..lucky i neber wearr swimmin suit..wore shirts and shorts horhx..hahahax..denn juz now wentt ferr the groupp projectt at hougang mall the library wif christopher..chester those ppl larhx..sianz bo.so tired..now listenin to the mary mooon songg..haix.i wan to dance..lols.veri sianx nowadayys..dun wan leongy to be our teacher larhx..borriinnnn..llalalaa..gtg manx..sayonaras!
camp
Saturday, June 11, 2005 5:50 PM
i hav sore thraot nw after screamin lik a deranged monkey fer the past three days at camp!and it finally ended dis mornin..*yawns*..wahahaha..quite ok larhx..a bit borin budden..mass dance RAWKS!see veryone mak a fool of themselves!=p except fer som UN-enthu peeps wo stand derr lik wood block liddat..bo chup everything one.neber had funn lik us!yaarhxx!we were lik laughin and screamin away.denn i remember the 3rd dance wer there muz b a boy and a gurl one horhx..everyone down der eeeee and ahhhhhhh...LOL..denn at the end after the boy-gurl dance..we all were rawkin dis dance mans!act cute here!WUHA!act cute der!WUHA!LOL..mary mooooooon!lolX!too bad huiyun neber dance wif ernest the skinny monkey!..awwww!hehees..LALALA ..campfire bit bit disappointin larrs..drizzlinn..so we sang'rain rain go away!cum again another dae!' lol..so childish liddat..i sang tad wen i was in primary skool?haix..but at the end still rain.sad la.at least we did enjoyed ourselves..as weeeeeeeeeeee...walk to the left as we walk to the right..as we walk as we walk as we walk all nite..wif a heel and a toe and a half turn arund wif a heel and a toe and a new fren found!-_-ll heees..huiyun neber had the chance to hold erNEST's hand.awwww!so sad rites..haaha..lurve the dancee!i gort the song of the 'mary moon' lehx..gort it frm clarice hu gort it frm huiyun hu got it frm dunnoe hu?mayb she got the song alr.haix..so now the e2 peeps can practise at home liaos..LOL..imagine one person stand derr and dance dis..haahahhaha...=D JOY! haha..WUHA! oh yarhs.i am leadin boon hao in dis veri lame game by so mani points and im soo happi!victory will be mine boony!MWAHAHAHA..x) we all veri high todae..lolx..i lurvee the KETCHUP DANCE!!ahhh!so niceee!i say le hey ha hey hey...hahahaa..dunnoe larhx..the 3 dance are the best part in dis 3D2N cAmp horhx...i wan to dance NOW!hahahas..so funn..budden slp at the hall fer so little hours lehx..tired..gort eye bags liaox..haix..i listenin to the MARY MOON song nws..mary moooooon!!!!haix..lameee! tired liaox..oh ya.one last thing..saddenin one.our new maths teacher is.....*drum rolls*...LEONG PEI SZU!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaahhhh!boohoooohoo!i dun wan lorhx..she so borin ones..*cries* I WAN MISS SEE HUEY YI!!!!! *sobx* tads all...tataaa!x))))
slackk
Monday, June 06, 2005 12:16 AM
went to pasir ris beach yesterday.again.but dis time neber lose my frisbeex..haix..built big big sandcastle wif my dad n bro..yeaps.sastifaction!denn high tide.dis big wave came and eat it up..nth left except sand.hmm.issit the same wif beautiful things?lik.deyy wont last long or somtin..slowly..dey will be washed away.no matter how much u try to build another one..it will neber be the same?hais.shuminx cummin moi huse laterr fer the lit hmk.SHAKESPEARE'S and MCBETH.yawns.groans.haben started on my maths hmk oso.bleahx...it sucks wen som ppl are so thick-skinn and shameless.i mean..such ppl are exist in dis world.i mean..its lik ure livin in dis world of yrs were u are lik a PRINCESS and you hav hundred of princes u can choose frm.PERFECTION.oh please.i mean..in the REAL WORLD.u becum a reject.seriously.its totally gross cuz ure still livin in yr fairytale world.despo.*slaps* and let those that play yr clowns speak no more than is set down for them;for there be of them that will themselves laugh,to set on some quantity oof barren spectators to laugh too.(3.2.40-5)-shakespeare
BOO!
Saturday, June 04, 2005 5:21 PM
urms.the cip thingy at the library is finally over.PHEW.one of the librarians derr hav brain damage after bein cooped up too much in the staff room..she cruelli seperated me..fionn(ms justea)..and jia yan..hmphs..how evil.and she givs us tad kind of why-are-you-all-givin-me-attitude look haix.i tink she tinks everyone is givin her attitude..tad explains her face.goin wif fiona derr one day to mess up all the bks!mwahahaha...lame.hmms.todae had to go hougang mall to do group project ferr the fashion fushion thingy..do ferr a short while den go liaox..sianx..haven started on my hmk yet.its time to slackk!um..fer the picnic thingy ritex..in case anyone is still unclear..erms.its on the 8th..venue is east coast parkk..time fer klass is 11-6..i tink..huiyun will b bringin u all derr..den fer klass committee will be earlier..yupz..anyone hu wans to brin cds are welcumed to do tad..oh ya.and aso badminton rackets n shuttlecorks if u hav any..hmms.remember to brin extra clothes cuz we plan to get WET!hehees..aso mayb brin money fer rentin of bikes..hmms.yarrs.tads bout all.went to pasir ris beach yesterdae..and i was playin the frisbee wif mt dad and bro wen i flung it in the wrong direction and it flew into the sea..so me and my dad went down into the water to find it and 2/3 of my body was wet..we used our feet to feel ferr the frisbee..feel until veri long lehx..denn lik so weird..two ppl walk along the same path over and over again.cuz we searchin tad area wer i flung it mahx..all my fault nehx..but lau tian bu fu you xin ren..my dad found it usin his powerful sense of touch..lolx..wadeva. quite funn lars..cuz i aso no need to go tuition becuz of dis family outin..hehees..denn tad dayy the sky alott of stars and i was liik sittin derr under the stars readin a bk and lookin at the stars..tinkin bout lots of things..yeaps..happii day! hahax..oks.no mor crap to say..
*groans*
Friday, June 03, 2005 2:43 AM
*groans*..at first i thot doin cip in toa payou library was goin to b easy-peasy..hell..im so damn wrong.try arrangin..shelvin..packin bks fer 3 hrs..i was busi yesterdae frm 4-7pm doin dis stupid cip thingy..omg..its hell in der.im seriousli not exxageratin..i dun understand how those librarians can stand it..dey hav to be inside dis staff room the whole day long and its so BORING! the air-con helped.but onli a little..aarrgghhh..its really veri veri tiring..i was der wearin my pe shirt wif the skool skirt..ungreacefully bendin down..squating down..arrangin all the bks and my knees and back sort of hurt..y do i hav to go thru dis kind of sufferin??haix..its really TAD BAD..if u dun believ..u can mak a trip to toa payou library 2dae to visit the sufferin me.hehee.im so bored derr!!2dae is the last day and i really wan to get it over and done wif..dammit..i really hate these..i get so dizzy doin all the bks..at least fiona was derr to accompany me..at least i dun hav to suffer ALONE.mwahahahaha..kkaes.another thing.yesterdae nite i was at hougang mall visitin the clinic wif my daddy..the rest of the shops were closed and its kinda eerie..cuz MY HAMSTER BITE ME.ya..it bite me.arrgghh..cuz the hamster was lik fightin wif another one..denn i tried to seperate dem and it bite me.how nice. so der was dis tooth mark on my right middle finger and der was blood. i juz washed it under water and get ready to slp wen i realize der's dis numbness in my middle finger.n wen i saw my SWOLLEN finger..i was lik.PANICKY.den my dad so nervous he sent me to the clinic lorhx..and along the way in the car..my dad was lik so damn scared...lik its so serious..so tad made me scared..so in the car..my dad was speeding and i was lik staring at my middle finger in digust..lolx. den the doctor said its nth serious..juz eat som tablets and wash it under water will b fine..initially..he wanted to giv a tetanas jab and i totally freaked out?i hate injections..but luckily pri6 gort jab be4 so no need...phew. so i was der feelin relieved wen 1 minute ago i thot i was goin to be poisoned by the hamster and hav my middle finger amputated. cuz my dad act lik i was goin to be poisoned to death..hees. i wont die so soon one larhx..hahaz..and the doctor even gav me a MC fer 2dae.LOL...lik.fer onli my middle finger?hahax..didnt noe my middle finger is so precious..hahax..i thot its onli gd at pointin at ppl..lolx..so now..hav to wait fer the swellin to disappear lorhx..hais.quite interestin lehx..hehees..one thing fer certain..im so not goin near my hamsters fer a period of time..=p oh ya..i'l be sloggin at toa payou library 2dae frm 4-7..feel free to visit the poor me.awww..=(
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
