Although today I unfortunately saw someone acting like a little b*tch and dampening my mood a little, I shall not be bothered because I have better things to do like preparing for my S.H.E concert 2moro! xD And also, going to celebrate fio's birthday before that! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL. LOVE YOU A BUNCH. STAY WACKY AND LOUD LIKE YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN. LOL. Ok la kidding. I'm just feeling pretty excited for 2moro, even though it's not my birthday and my ticket is not $148. haha..-.- But I'm still gonna have a great time. It's like having a small break from all the textbooks and mugging. (: Feels good, although a tad bit guilty. Just a teeny winny bit.
P.S I am practically smiling away now. not because of the concert, not 2moro's celebration. But something I've been waiting for. :D 10pm got War and Beauty[jin zhi yu ye]! go watch it and see how the imperial ladies scheme against each other! LOL. tads how evil women can be. beware guys.
cip today. sians.
Sunday, January 21, 2007 1:04 AM
Woke up at 6plus today cuz hafta do Flag Day. Sians. Last week nv do cuz down with flu, so do this week with e6 lor.
This time we're giving the proceeds to an orphanage, and the tin can is XL can! Like two times the normal tin can we usually get. like those MILO tin cans? yeah. I think those who filled it all up with coins must have been very hardworking, Me, Fiona and Bh leh! Went around slacking! LOL. Cuz it's so early mah, no people arnd toa payou, only some old people bringing their dogs out for a walk. So we target some of them for awhile, den proceeded to Bishan. We went inside the empty J8 and took the escalator up to the forth floor. Then we sat down comfortably on the floor and SLACK. hehehe. Talk crap abit, sing song abit, drank our ginseng[mine], wheat grass[bh's] and luo han gup[fio's] drink abit.. When we finally decided to stop slacking, we went down to collect donations! Stayed there for a few hours. Leg pain and shoulder pain. As usual, met all types of people la. Some dun even look at my direction, some even diao me den walk away. I cant stand the ones who look at you when you ask them , den continue walking like they nv hear what you say liddat.
what! I talking to air ar? So I continue asking them lor, since they nv refuse or anything what.xD
First try.
'Hi would you like to make some donations? It's for the orphanage.' *smiles sweetly*
Person ignores and continue walking. I follow.
'Excuse miss? would you like to donate?' *smile fades slightly*
Person continues walking. I follow persistantly.
'hey miss? MISS? hey excuse me MISS?' *forced smile and alr half fed-up*
Finally she shakes her head a little, then I walk off.
Like saying a 'no' is so difficult! Waste my precious time! hmph!
ahaha.
Fiona says she doesn't like those who when been asked whether he/she would like to donate, replys,'I've donated already.' She feels that donate already so what? cannot donate again meh? hahaha.. Actually i think it's okay la.. but bh says when meet with these kind of people right, hafta say,'So would you like to donate AGAIN?' Must emphasise on the 'AGAIN'. LOLS. So I started asking those people who already have a the orphanage sticker on their shirts to donate again. And out of ten, only 1 or 2 agrees. hais... sad case.
At the end our tins were quite heavy actually, but not close to full at all.
ANYWAY........... GOOD NEWS[for me]!
I AM GOING TO S.H.E PERFECT 3 WORLD TOUR CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D
Poor me is going alone, cuz some ppl*uhem* dun wanna pay money to go with me.=(
hahaha okay la.. nvm, go alone den go alone lor!
Wun let it spoil my mood!
YAY YAY! A FEW MORE DAYS!
wahahahaha..... XD
yet, smile again.
Monday, January 15, 2007 11:40 PM
ack. Realise previous post was pretty solemn. hahaha..try to forget about it la okay.
Today Linyu bought his two terrapins to class today.=D A splitting image of the two previous terrapins I had!!! Which had both mysteriously gone missing one fine day even though there was a glass lid placed over their 'home'!=( We searched everywhere but to no avail, so we concluded it jumped off our balcony.=X Okay didn't mean to freak you out. haha.. So anyway.. I took a liking to his terrapins immediately, cuz it's so adorable and active! I hate those terrapins which when you hold them, they hide themselves in their shell and refuse to crane their neck and poke their little head out. No fun one. haha Linyu's ones like to stick their tiny head out, giving me the chance to stroke their neck. LOL like it's a pet dog or sth. But whatever. I think they like it. xD Hopefully they don't die or jump off the school building too soon. Cuz you never know when linyu's the owner... wahahaha.. =p
As usual, I was sneezing and coughing the whole morning today at school. It was gone better since the last few days but still it sucks. I'm sorry if you had trouble concentrating in class since I bet my sneezing is considerably loud enough for the whole class to hear it everyone's quiet. haha.. Nobody said a single thing to me tho, except for mean old fiona, who leaned towards me during english lesson when I was sneezing away and said,'you are very distracting.' hahahaa.. Sorry la! Cannot help it, but I know she's not trying to be mean la. (:
Btw I liked english lesson today cuz tobias let us hear Martin Luther King's famous speech about racial equality and the the road to freedom and everlasting peace. She printed out the whole speech of his for us, while playing us the audio of his exact speech through her laptop. I must say, his speech is really very inspiring and strong. Around the end of his speech[which is damn long man!], I actually closed my eyes. And suddenly, I was not sitting in front of 4e5 classroom. I was sitting in front of Martin Luther King, and surrounding me are people, the Blacks and the Whites, all clapping and cheering as King talks. I could feel the energy, the spirit and the atmosphere, as if I was there! And I open my eyes.... Martin Luther King was standing in front of me! ..... In actual fact it's actually a picture of him addressing the crowd which mrs tobias screened for us to see. -.- hahaha okay la nevermind, pardon my lameness. So as I was saying, I liked his speech alot, esp the starting, where he pronounced the word 'happy' as a different kind of tone which I find pretty amusing and funny. hahaha no offense or anything. Found his speech video on youtube, and my brother kept replaying the start where he says 'I am happy to be able to join...' . -.- I told him not to insult Martin Luther King as he is my new idol. hahaha.. But I shall remain devoted to S.H.E nevertheless.
Speaking of S.H.E, I find no one willing to go to their concert with me.=( Maybe I will go alone after all...
Okay gotta sleep. bye!
Life.
Saturday, January 13, 2007 8:33 AM
I once read that life is like this dark and pitch-black tunnel where you can't see a thing. You feel frightened, but as the train chugged patiently along, the scary darkness eventually ends and the comforting sunlight in the distance slowly greets you. There is this phase that everyone has to go through one point or another in life. As tough and threatening as it may be, it will pass. Time buries and heals all wounds. Making them disappear is not possible as it will forever be penetrated deeply down in our hearts where one day will be dug up as memories start to flow back. Each wound tells a life-lesson. Heck what those people say. You are yourself, and if those people are the ones who've changed, who cannot accept you for who you are, then for all I care get out of the tunnel all by yourself.
Yet some, even as you least expected it, will be there to bring and guide you out of this tunnel, and is sincere and grateful just as you are to him/her. These are the people you really must treasure, go through thick and thin together. The journey ahead is long and probably tedious, many people yet to meet. Some that appears, they are great and wonderful people. They bring some light in the tunnel, and even though you may be having a bad day or are feeling like trash, they will be there to listen and give advice. But some, they seemed to be the nicest people on earth. Always trying to make an effort in proving that they are kind, they are gracious, they are generous. But one glance and you can tell they are fakes. Do not be confused between the ones who are real and the ones who are fake. Distinguish the fakes, they are often really selfish at heart. They think of their own interests, is self-centred but appear kind and caring to gain people's trust and superficial friendship. They care a lot of what people think of them, whether they are popular, or pretty...etc. It is pretty obvious. People who are friends with those living on fakes smiles and using a personality that's not even theirs will complain of being tired and having a sense of insecurity. Yet they choose to continue what they're doing. Because if they don't, they will be 'kicked out' of the 'group', or the clique if that's what you want to call it. I laugh at this pathetic situation. Nobody have the right to 'kick' people out. Who the hell made them king and queens? Since when do they have the authority to decide who can speak up and who has to quietly stand in the corner? Is there a reason? Unless those people chose to keep mum all the way, do not try to even label them with anything. Not losers not rejects not loners not anything. In fact, have you ever wonder that they probably chose this path, to escape and run away from that suffocating air and deciding to take a new fresh one? who knows? The air on the other side of the tunnel may even be better.
P.S. Yes I am at home posting this, not outside carrying tin cans and asking people for their donations. I wished I could be doing flag day[hey I actually find joy in helping to fill up the entire can with coins okay.(:] but I can't cuz I'm still down with flu that gets worser day by day and cough. Some people I know will gladly take my place to skip flag day. LOL.
Also, in my above post, I am not specifically pin-pointing at anyone, nor am I referring the situations to myself. I am speaking in GENERAL, that there are such people around. And if you think I've been one before, then I sincerely apologise. The last few sentences, I don't even know what I'm saying. haha..
FLU and F****!
Friday, January 12, 2007 5:36 PM
I AM ON THE VERGE OF SCREAMING RIGHT NOW.
I just typed a pretty long post and then suddenly the computer konked out on me and left me with this ugly black screen.
Just like that, my post is gone. My nice post which I put my thoughts and feelings into it is gone. Just like that. I feel very hurt and very very very mad. You are very lucky you cant see my face right now cuz it's as black as the blank computer screen which stared blankly back at me a few minutes ago. I shall now start spouting a string of profanities. @$@&^%$!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^*!@#$%^&!@#$%^&*^##^*!&*@*(@*(*))^!@#&*!@&*@&*@&*^@*&@*(*(@)()*@&*)@)(&*@)*(@&*@&** @*&)!(*!^*()&@**(@*@@^!@#%$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!##$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$ ^&*!@#^&*
okay I feel slightly better. Let me now patiently try to recall what I had just typed and hopefully manage to write almost the same as just now.
I remember it starts like this..
I caught a flu.=(
I realised having a cold is worse than having headache, a fever, or even a blister on the foot. [I'm not speaking in terms of their dangerousity of course] A small harmless sneeze erupted into big rude ones, and the tissue suddenly became my best friend. -.- The dreaded flu bug decided to invade my nose yesterday morning, wickedly weakening my immune system and making me fall victim to influenza. I used up TEN packets of tissue ytd, not including the ones I used at home. One of the ten I asked from this auntie sitting in front of me in bus82. I was so desperate la! I ran out of tissues! She was kind as to give me a packet, although not full, but I used it up in about 5 minutes or so. The journey home was.... nevermind.
Today, I came to school fully-charged and prepared! 7 packets of tissue! Realising that actually it wasn't enough, considering the fact that I used up half of it before recess, I had to go to the girls toilet to buy two more. I am surprised my nose didn't fall off together with the mucus when I sneezed into the tissue. The cherry on top of the cake would be, because of the cold, I developed congestion,dry cough, runny nose, watery eyes , tiredness, and a little fever. I can't help but feel sorry for my pathetic self. When I recover, I shall go take a flu shot. So I can say sayonara to stupid Mr.F while he wanders away and sail through the air in search of another unaware female/male minding their own business. Before they can say 'bless me', disaster strikes and the nightmare begins. *sighs and shakes head*
COMMON COLD STINKS BIG TIME. SO DOES THE FEELING WHEN YR COMPUTER SHUTS DOWN ON YOU. =/
Moving on to next topic.. Today's rain was really heavy. The big puddles on the floor rise comfortably above my white shoes! I was stuck in the bus stop near zhss and I saw shermaine, who was from the class I facilitated this year. She lent me her umbrella, cuz she doesn't need it, so that I can go to the bus interchange! Or else I would be stuck at that bus stop for hours. (: ha! The benefits of being a facil. But anw, thanks alot shermaine, if you ever come across this blog. You helped me two times, the first being the forging of signature on my locker form. LOL. I dunno how to forge! Even if you ask me to scribble some weird writings that somehow look like a signature I can't! and I dunno why. Some people have the talent I guess. xD
Everyone's[I think]almost back on track now, and we constantly hear the teachers, esp. Mr Lee[!], nagging about the big 'O'. The stress is definitely on us la, and I dun have time to think of anything else now. During morning assembly I searched everywhere among the black heads and turned backs, my eyes exploring the rows of people wearing white. Yet again, I find nothing, so I guess that's just the end of it. it's not that important anyway.
J Lau brought the Magic UFO to school for me to bring home to play for a few days. In exchange, I lent him my china-brought magnets that make a nice sizzling sound when thrown and clanged together in mid-air, although lau has it already, also from china. According to this guy from 4e1, who also has it, it can easily be brought from the store opposite school. -.- But! Theirs costs 1 sg dollar while mine costs only 20cents[meaning 1 yuan in china]. The stuff sold there are affordable cheap and good. Okay before I start ranting about China again, I shall continue with my initial topic. The Magic UFO is an addictive toy that deals with magnets and their fields as well. If you manage to get the 'UFO' suspended in mid-air you get this HUGE sense of accomplishment because it takes skills and experience. FYI, the 'UFO' can stay suspended in mid-air for hours and even weeks as long as there is nothing to disrupt it's magnetic force towards the magnetic board. Which is super cool, but nobody I know has succeeded before. Except for the uncle who sold me a set of this magic UFO too, in china. But unfortunately, it got confiscated by the security guard in the airport, saying that it cannot be taken into the plane because of it's magnetic field. If we had put it into our luaggage, den they wun check it and thus, we will be able to bring it back to sg! J lau put his in his luaggage, so good for him la. And no, we didn't go to china together. He went last year, I this. After many failed attempts by yu chao, edmund, kai xiang, kia weng, coreen, wax, calvin, yee en, oswell and a bunch of 4e1 guys, it was concluded that only I, the genius, can do it. LOL. I'm kidding. Even J lau, who has it for more than a year can't do it can. But I will try! Keep trying determinedly during the weekends until it floats reliably on mid-air! Then I will take a picture of it and put in my blog. =D hahaha.. Scarely right, it takes three years to master this ability. And the uncle in china who demostrated the incredible feat a few times for me before we bought it probably took 40 years of this life to master it. Wahahahaha..
Enough about UFOs. S.H.E is coming to Singapore!!!!!!!!!! I want to go to S.H.E's concert so bad but the ticket prices are like 'WHAT!' and what's more I can't find anyone to go with me. Bh says he no money. C'mon it's like a once in three years or sth thing! How can miss it?!?!? But maybe I will la, I dunno.. Unless someone sponser me with $128 sg dollars.=D I shall fork out another 20 so I can buy the $148 one. Or maybe at least sponser $68 dollars, the cheapest price. hahahaha yes I know, in my dreams. I think my flu is starting to damage my brain.
My post shall end here. omg CIP tomorrow. Hmm maybe I can report sick.=X
P.S I feel sick. In need of TLC, wish me luck in my battle against the menacing Mr.F.
full-time mugger![maybe not]
Monday, January 08, 2007 5:02 PM
Okay apparently I didn't have time to post at all ytd. Too busy doing homework. ME. TOO BUSY DOING HOMEWORK.
why cannot meh? huh cannot meh? LOL. fine fine. so anyway... I guess I 'll post about the camp some other day. I'm just gonna do a short post[long post are for weekends] now.
Lessons officially started today. Sitting so upfront really gave me a splitting headache leh. and my stess level increases after every lesson la.=( Everytime one teacher [esp miss tan!!!] comes close to my seat and start asking the class questions, I will tremble in fear of being asked and then giving a humiliating answer. lol. Okay no trembling in fear, but got heart skip a beat. hahaa.. chao scary. know I sort of know how mingli felt last year. No wonder this year she sat at the second row, which was the row I sat last year.-.- haha smart.
Yeah y'all may think ,'wah sit so infront good what, can listen more attentively.' It doesn't really helps if you're a person who think too much. and I can't believe this is happening to me again this year. I should have learnt my lesson from the beginning of last year but damn! here I am again, letting my mind drift off to some abnormal stuff [do not think dirty thankyouverymuch.xD]which I realise is what I have been doing these few days. and I dun think it's gonna stop so soon. I seriously think ders sth wrong with me. because I obviously know the same conclusion will happen again this year, maybe even worse.=( so I gotta stop as soon as possible before the damage gets major. But der's still this part of me that's not willing to let go. Okay am I making you confuse? good.(:
Being a facil for Sec 1 Orientation Camp'07 RAWKS!(:
Sunday, January 07, 2007 1:49 AM
Being a facil for Sec 1 Orientation Camp'07 RAWKS!=D Reason's simple: It's what I enjoy to do.
I know I know, a few weeks before the camp, there was this post with me grumbling about being a facil and all that stuff. But I stupidly forgot about how much fun I had last year, and the dances and cheers.. it's like becoming a sec1 all over again!(: Who cares about the CIP hours[okay I only say this cuz I have enough of CIP hours already.-.-]? haha so anw, this year's camp was not so bad. At least I didn't completely lost my voice like last year[it was horrible! I had voice like a man for I think at least a month! Grr!]. haha.. And it's funny cuz I see those sec1s I facilitate last year becoming facils this year! So lucky can, can do for two more times. Me leh, only two times.=( haha but I'll still keep in mind what I've learnt in the years to come. hmm I dun think I'll be blogging much this year [y'all know the reason why la], esp during the weekdays. So dun even talk about going online la. Sians. So now, even it's 2.04am, I am not gonna sleep! haha! I am gonna talk about camp! Mwahahaha. Actually I think many facils and camp staff are sleeping right now cuz we were all looking like pandas during our group photo. Still have to force a smile out.. haha. On the first night, I only slept for around three hours. Cuz I was up in the Student Centre 'doing hmk'. Oswell was 'doing hmk' with me too. So I think we're both like zombies in class. In class I kept yawning every one minute! Can't help it! But gotta tell myself to open my eyes! Open my eyes! haha cuz im sitting directly below the teacher's nose.=( Then when bell rings for recess I immediately closed my eyes and slept. Wah that nap really very shaung.
urgh I feel like sleeping now. can't tahan anymore. Will blog 2moro. after I complete my hmk.=X Nights. :)
My side my side, my side my front my back, my side my front my side my back, my side my front my back! Pang bian pang bian, pang bian qian mian hou mian, pang bian qian mian pang bian hou mian, pang bian qian mian hou mian! Tepi tepi, tepi hadapan belakang, tepi hadapan, tepi balakang, tepi hadapan belakang!
Sorry. Post-camp addiction. xD[More to come 2moro.LOL]
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Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
