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exams!
Thursday, September 29, 2005 5:32 PM

exams are cumin.
and im not exactly looking forward to it.
hhaa.hu does.?
so anywaes.
goin to the concert 2moro.
cant wait mans.
haha..
cant wait to see weichoong and derrick botak!
mwahahaa..
okok.
sorry for not updating recently.
didnt hav the time.
im freakin out becuz of THE EXAMS.
really wish me luck ppl.
so gonna need it mans.
got quite hurt and angry juz now.
but it'll ger over.
cant stay angry all the time.
its seriously unhealthy.
cant wait for hols.
wanna go out wif 6agapians and e2pians(sound strange)
whateva.
good luck ppl for yr exams.
althou som dun really need it.
becuz tats the thing wif geniuses.
smart alecs.
its not that i hav a thing against dem.
i dunno.gettin a little emotional these few days.
plus wad happened juz now.
im a little shaken.
but it'll be over.
i juz realise i dun really sound like me.
hmms.
muz be the exam stress.
definitely.

STUDY STUDY STUDY.
Saturday, September 24, 2005 2:59 AM

its gettin stresser and stresser each day mans.
exams stress.
hais.
and im still counting down.
7 mor days till jue dui superstar concert!
ok fine.
dis doesnt seem the time to be gettin excited over a concert wen the exams are arnd the corner.
but at least the days ahead will seemed less boring rites.
haha.
wadever.
watched shi wan dun qing yuan juz now.
hav been following dis show for quite a long time liaos.
and it so rawk mans.
its a love comedy
and i like weichen(jason) best.
waha.
he totally rawk my tv.
aha.
so anywaes,
went to take part the kfc moment thingy wif shumin.
wahaha..
took photos at the playground
each of us holdin chicken and drinks and fries.
lols.
real funny mans.
we wan to win the grand prize!
hehee.
we like very bo liao hors.
ohwells.
seow lan walked out on our class today.
for the second time.
pms?
hmms..
i tink she quite impatient lehs.
i mean..
other classes may be faster dan us in understanding and explaining the digestion of food
but as a teacher..
she shld be patient wif us wad.
she cant juz cum in to our class and start giving us bad face.
and we're forever stuck in the digestion of chicken rice.
oh great.
she says she's not cumin for our next lesson..
is tad equivalent to giving up on us?
hais...
we wer got tad bad lors.
i tink seow lan undergoing alot of stress lehs.
she WAS very nice to us.
hmms.
oh ya.
my chin hurts.
to be specific,
my right chin hurts.
the story goes lik dis.
i lent idiotic chestnut my fat panda.
he dropped it when returning back to me.
muz be on purpose.
den i bent down to pick it up.
and tads wen tad idiot decide tad i would be fun to hit my head again.
and so he did.
and dis caused my chin to knock against the table.
dammit.
and not even an apology.
argh.
hurts man.
hmphs.
=(
hmms.
maureen scolded me today.
for puttin the music notes on my lap instead of the music stand.
as long as i feel comfortable
it doesnt really matter rite?
hu cares.
bleahs.
ok i seriously cant stand gross behavior.
sth tad happened recently bothers me.
but i shld get used to it after awhile.
since you cant really expect much frm her.
ok so btws.
my tuition teacher gave us sommor riddles today.
every lesson aso got riddles to solve den can go for break.
argh.
so if anyone feels bored and wans to be bo liao.
can cum find me for som lame riddles.
i repeat.
LAME.
oks.gtg slp..
its 12.22 now.
yawns.
goodnight.=)

bleahs!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005 4:44 PM

HALO.
my family and i went to celebrate mid autumn festival wif my cousin and his family on sunday.
waha.
we brought along candles and lanterns and stuff.
den we went to dis park wer der were aso may ppl walkin arnd wif lanterns
and candles everywere.
so we found dis spot wer der was a bench near a barrier which surrounds a lampost.
so we decided to decorate the barrier and the lampost
wif lanterns and candles.
den we walken arnd and saw dis small tree at a corner.
so we decided to decorate it toos!
wahaha.
and it was seriously diff to put a candle on one damn leaf.
and i did it!
whaha.
in all..me and my aunt managed to stick four candles on the leaves on the tree..
and lemme tell u..
it looks really beautiful frm afar..
haha..
and we put candles surrounding the tree.
until it looks like a christmas tree.
haa..den my cousin started burning things on the floor.
and soon a tiny campfire started.
and i was breathing in alot of smoke.
haha..budden quite fun la.
haa..den we played the maze..
haha..i sound so babyish..
ok wadever.
den went home!
hmms.
had home econs test ytd.
so-so la.
nth really exciting happened today..
juliana tay came to visit pur class during art lesson
and started being unreasonable.
as alwayz.
so she was lik' tads my chair! hu says u can take it?'
and jeremy was sayin 'tads school property lor.'
of cuz not in front of her la.
stupid juliana.
feel lik cuttin her long disgusting hair off.
i mean.
her hair totally dun suit her OLD face mans.
it scares ppl.
haha..
so anywae..she was like scoldin oswell for sth i dunno wad.
tink wad bein rude to her ar..
sians.
sommor she claimed the art room as HERS.
wa lao ehs.
siao de.
ahaha..
me and huiyun and jeremy had a thing wif advertisements nowadays.
lols.
our fav is the wang wang pao pao guo dong commercial thingy.
we sorta expertise in tad.
haha.
and alot la..
lik the visacard commercial
mor bird,mor luck!
my uncle is going on a journey tomoro
i wan to bring him good fortune
but ders only enough for one bird!
ok.
lols.ok i noe.
lame rites..
=.=
we bo liao ma.
haha..ok..gtg..
exams are arnd the corner..
good luck ppl!!!!
oh ya.boony..stop acting cute.
ha! x)

mid-autumn festival!
Sunday, September 18, 2005 6:24 PM

waha!
ytd was fun!
alot of events.
haha..
old folk's home visit.
mid autumn festival in school.
blah blah blah.
yups.
i went to old folk's home wif som of my cldds frens.
cuz cldds got to act out a play der to earn som points lars.
hehee.actually i not in the play one.
cuz i alr in another play liao mars.
budden the day before ytd my cl teacher suddenly ask me be their plays' MC.
haha.so der i am..
met wif fiona to tak bus to J8 at arnd 1.30 liddat.
cuz tads wer all the other cast memebers will be meetin.
den we all took bus frm J8 to old folk's home lors.
den i was lik wondering..
wen did kelmen becum so tall???
den i found out he was wearin the school's long pants.
haha.he really looked tall lars.
hmphs.
veri zi bei..
haha...so anywae.
we went to the old folk's home at arnd 2 sth i tink
den saw alot of old folks.
duh.
den i was abit scared lars.
scared i forgot my lines mar.
haha.but at the end ok lars.
den the two plays were acted out
and it was so funny.=)
cldds rawks!
wahahhaa.
den after everything..
its alr 4 sth liao.
and im supposed to meet at the school's foyer at 5.15 wif the other three cast members of my play.
jia yan and siting and felicia(2e3)..
so i took cab der.
and i was early!
mwahahaha.
cuz im alwaes known for my lateness.
but dis time im the earliest!
lols.okok..
no big deal.
so btws.
we four ate the food the school provided for us
and it seriously sucks.
YUCKS.
haha..but the salad was fine.
den we four rehersed our play again and again.
den put on make-up lors.
huiting helped wif mine.
haha..thankyous!
den ppl started filling in the hall.
and we were bacstage talking and tellin ghost stories.
lols.nth better to do lars.
den i was lik really scared after hearin the ghost stories dey told.
very eerie lehs..
aiyo..y muz torture ourselves before the play starts?
haha.
and we were all gettin pretty nervous lars.
ours is the third item.
den it turned out quite ok lars.
except for a few tiny mistakes here and der.
haha..den after all the performances..
all went downstairs to the canteen to munch.
my parents and bro were present toos.
and i went to visit the stall whereby clement..chestnut..ian and jonathan were makin mooncakes
and foolin arnd
as usual.
and som idiotic ppl kept putting flour on me
den sommor splash water on me.
ARGH.
childish ppl nowadays.
haha..
ppl hu ate their mooncakes..
BEWARE!
mwahaha..the least tad will happen is juz death lars.
haha..
okok..den i asked tad ming kiat to help me get one lantern.
den he went and never cum bac.
idiot.
lols.so after everything.
me and family went to visit my grandparents.
dne i saw my cousins!
one of dem was jun yan(not pronounced as junyang)
and she's a little girl.
and very cute.
and she keep askin me to tell her ghost stories.
wa lao ehs.
she say 'the more ghost stories i tell her..the mor happy she gets'
haha..so young so daring..
so unlike me de.
ahha.
but i still told her lars.
and i got scared at the end.
hais..
i esp HATE ghost stories bout toilets
so dun tell me about dem.
den after eating dinner wif my grandparents and my aunt and uncle and my cousins and my family,
we went home at arnd 1 sth.
late sia.
was really tired.
bathed and slept...
haha..wad an eventful day!
=D
CLDDS RAWKS!

LAG
Friday, September 16, 2005 2:47 AM

ok im lik so pissed off rite now.
argh.dun wan to mention bout it.
ok so anywae.
dis saturday is zhss mid-autumn festival thingy at 7.30pm
and ya i repeat again.
i hope tad 6agapians will cum.
ok.
ma and huiting bot a tamaguchi
it was actually a 1 yr old puppy at first.
but huiting accidentally knocked it on the table
and now its a caterpillar.
errrrrr..
haha.but very cute.
and boony..dis not NOT bein outdated or anitin ok.
2moro dun cum to me askin for it hor.
=)
oh ya.
tad stupid infidel.
hit my head and face so many times today
tad i tpotally cant stand him anymor
and giv him a black face.
argh.
he keeps using his smelly and dirty t-shirt tad he wore for lit play today to SMACK my face.
i repeat.
SMACK.
and its lik damn pain lar.
seriously painful
and boony still sit down beside me and laugh.
wad happen to gentlemens?
hmphs.
haha.and den tad idiotic infidel carried a whole big pile of books and slame on my head.
wa lao ehs!
hurts man.
sobs.
insensitive ppl nowadays.
ok btws..speakin bout lit play.
we were the last gorup to perform today.
me,melissa,huiyun,eunice and shu min.
yups.
me-macbeth
mel-banquo
shumin-lady macbeth
eunice-fleance
huiyun-king duncen
and its lik the blood was stained on huiyun's uniform wen i stabbed her.
mwahaha.
*evil grins*
haha.and its lik we suddenly forgot wad is the next scene or wad to do next at som moment.
lols.so malu liddat.
but ovarall....not bad lars.
not the worst can liao
haha.
hmms.
me and huiting were at compass point.
and huiting went to burger king to eat.
so i accompany her.
den she ordered green tea and cream pie.
and guess wad.
we put the bloody pill powder on the leftovers of the cream pie and added green tea over it.
and it turns PINK.
as in YOGURT PINK.
eww.
haha.den we poured the powder into the green tea and mix it.
and it turns BLOODISH.
hahaa..okok.
we're lame i noe.
but juz for fun la.
den we were lik spillin som of dis bloody liquid on the table
to giv the cleaner the impression tad sth terrible happened or sth.
lols.no lar.
not so scary.
we were lik standin at a corner to see how the cleaner would react
but she lik never react strongly or anitin lehs.
how disappointin.
haha..
ok.
gtg slp liao.
nites!x)


wedding bells!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:38 AM


yes im at com lab nows.
my idiotic house comp spoil.
lik..the 3rd or 4th time?
argh.so its sent fo repair.
dammit
anywaes,hav 2 happy things to blog about.
wahahhaa.
1.aunt's weddin!woke up lik 5 sth to go to my grandma's huse to prepare.
and i was lik so damn tired.
and so i wore dis dress tad my mum bot fer me.
haha.and my aunt's frens and relatives were alr der wen we arrived.
and i saw my aunt in her beautiful beautiful wedding dress!
so so so nice.i hav never seen my aunt liddat.
haha.cuz she looks really veri diff wif make-up!
and i was lik WOW.and den i got abit emotional.
lols.dunno y but i feel lik cryin..
haha.den we took a few photos together.
den my aunt's relatives started plannin how to deal wif the bridegroom wen he comes knockin at the door.
MWAHAHHA.
we want him to giv us money! of cuz.haha
den we wan him to blow the recorder.
muz blow a love song!
hhahaa.and we made him answer a few questions to test him of his understanding towards my aunt and her family.
hahaha.he did all dis before we let him enter.
aha.and den he entered finally.
and he said the three magical words to my aunt too.
I love you.
and i tink she was very touched.
haha.im so happy to see her smile.
hehee.den the bride and the groom went to places to take photos.
and den dey came bac to serve tea.
and alot of photos were taken!
den after alot of tea serving(hmphs.dey never serve tea to me!lols.)
ppl went home to prepare for the wedding dinner at night!
yaaaay! got nice food to eat!
haha.so after changin into dis purple dress and blah blah blah.
we set off for the wedding dinner!
mwahaha.we were arranged to hav the front sit.
and it was really great because we can see clearly on wads happinin in front and we get to be served on plate instead of takin the food ourselves.
haha.and den the wedding song started playing.
tang tang tang tang tang tang tang tang!
lols.and my aunt appeared and walked down the red carpet while
i throw flowers and glittery thingys on her!
hahahaha.how fun.
and she looked so beautiful mans!
haha.den after being pronounces husband and wife..
we can eat!
haha.tads my favourite part!
cuz im so so hungry at tad time
i ate peanuts before the ceremony began.
haa..and we had shark fin and abalone....
haha..saliva drippin liao rites..
ok lar.dun torture u liaos.
okok.den the ceremony ended after the dessert.
and i was real full.
went to congratulate my aunt again.
and i felt teary again.
i tink tads about the third time tad day tad i felt lik cryin.
i tink its becuz i keep tinkin about nice memories between my aunt and me.
she's really nice to me and always
buy gifts for me and my bro.
she and i are mor lik friends instead.
haha.and we share quitea close realationship.
but now she's goin to move out soon of my grandma's huse.
and i wont really get much chance to see her again.
so really sad lars.
but happy at the same time to noe tad she found a man hu really love her.
hais..ok..im sorta lik gettin mushy.
haha.kkaees.shall elaborate on my next happy thing nows!
2.i shoke hands wif junyang!!!!!
hahahahha.siao liaos.
me and eunice went to bukit panjana plaza for the handshakin session wif a few of the superstars!
haha.and we waited and waited
and finally junyang,candyce,jason,weilian,kelly and sin huey appeared.
woohoos.
but wa lao jason.
hu wans to shake hands wif him?
haha.
but we were excited.
but cant reallly see their full body cuz the banners and posters fans in front was holdin were blockin us.
and we r short.
haha.but its ok lars.
cuz the next minute we were shakin their hands!
and i talked to dem too!
wahahahah.
happinesss!
den sin huey so pretty!
and junynag so shuai!
lols.too bad weichoong wasnt der.
or else i would hav shoke hands wif him!
haha.he went for army.
hav to shave off all his hair
becum botak!
aaaaaaaaaah..
wahahaa.nvm..will still support him!
yay!x)
took a few photos of dem aso.
and obtained a limited poster!
wahhaa.which is now hung on my study room door.
hahaa.kkaes.
i gtg.
byebyee!

swim swim swim
Friday, September 09, 2005 9:49 PM


ah yes.
we were supposed to be doin hmt project.
but ended up swimmin instead.
wahahaha.
ytd shumin and i met up at rivervale mall to eat lunch first.
and she blur blur take wrong LRT
and i was earlier to reach der dan her!!!
MWAHAHAHAHA.
finally for once,
i am early.
HOHOHO~!
ok anywae.
we went my huse to do project.
and halfway thru.
my dad wanted to tak my bro go swimmin.
and asked if we want to cum along.
hahaha.and we chose to slack.
so we went to jurong to swim
but found out wen we reached der tad
it was closed.
argh.
dampamed my spirit.
so we went to safra lors.
safra not as fun as jurong swimmin pool.
but nvm lars.
haha.so i lent shumin one of my swimmin costumes!
waahaha.and we swam 10 laps!
haha.i wan to swim mor next time.
yups.
and we did alot of silly things lar.
lik dancin in the pool and stuff.
lols.juz foolin arnd.
and we tink the lifeguard is in love.
haha.cuz he keeps smilin to himself.
and he keeps lookin at his fone and grins.
wahaha.
i bet he would'nt even noe if someone starts drownin.
lols.
and we swam for dunno how long
and decided to go.
so my dad brought us to hougang der to eat.
and den shumin went home.
haha.and ya.
we didnt complete our project.
hehee.
oks.
our mid autumn celebration in zhss shld be on the 17th of sebtember
callin out for 6agapians to go!
haha.
will be performin on tad day.
hmms.tomoro is the handshakin session wif
junyang,kelly,weilian,sin huey,candyce and jason.
yucks.
jason!hu wants to shake hands wif him?
ahah.but so sad.
no weichoong.
aaaaaah.
at least still got junyang and kelly.
i wan to go.
and i need to buy the tickets by today.
hais.
anywaes.
i happen to noe tad today is..chester's' bdae?
so happy birthday chestnut.
may u grow mor mature.
hahahahahahahahahhaha.
i doubt tad will ever happen.
haha.okok.
lets do dis properly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHESTER.
stupid infidel.
lols.kkaes.
hav tuition later on.
groans.
byebye.


macbeth
Wednesday, September 07, 2005 6:34 PM

HELLO.
eunice and huiyun and mel came my huse today to do lit play!
and was laughin all the way durin the murder of king duncan(eunice).
wahahaa.
the stabbing part is hard mans.
i muz stab eunice lightly
so tad she would not feel pain
or else someone would cum kill me
for torturin eunice
ehem ehem.
lols.kkaes.
and dey went to disturb my poor hamsters.
ahahaa..
dey were lik tryin to catch the baby hamster
but failed after many funny attempts.
wahaa..
and so the baby hamster went to hiding
becuz u all frightened it.
lols.nahs..
hais..haven complete my hmk
yikkes.
hope dis hol wont end so fast.
hmms.
went to school on mons
for cldds play practise.
for the mid autumn festival thingy
which i tink is on the 30th of sebtember
arnd at night liddat..
if anybody interested
can go..cuz its open to public?
shld be ba.
wan 6agapians to go!
whahaa..go and see my play!
hahaha.
would be great to see u all again..
lols.kkaes.
very tired nows.
and my legs hurt mans.
cuz i went to run 15 rounds arnd the track below my block ytd.
yups.
and now my leg hurts.
tads wad happen wen u dun exercise regularly.
hais.
and my brother ran lik...7 rounds?
and his leg does not hurt
not a single bit.
wad can i say?
the world is unfair.
hahaa..its not the number of rounds thingy.
i mean.7 rounds is alot for my bro.
ar whatever.
i wanna go do my maths liaos.
see la.
all becuz of ian.
influence me only.
doin hmk everytime i ask him wad he doin.
make me feel so inferior
haha..kkaes.
gtg
byebyee..

hurrays
Tuesday, September 06, 2005 12:11 AM

oks!
my comp is repaired!
finally.
wuha!
so now im goin to tok bout jue dui superstar!
ok fine.
admits tad im abit crazy over it lars.
ok not abit
but whatever.
junyang and weichoong and kelly rawks.
wohoos.
but kelvin the mang xia won!
ohwells.
dun really care or
feel hatred or anitin
cuz junyang dey all aso not inside liaos.
show becum meaningless le.
hais...
and wow.
kelly looked super great tad night.
haha..kelly!kelly!kelly!
ok stop.
now lets tok bout JJ!
wahahhaa.
simply lurve the duet between him and kelly
singin mu nai yi!
hehees.
great chemistry.
anywaes,
went bac to pri school on teacher's day!
mwahahaha!
but didnt manage to persuade ernest to go.
hais.no wonder huiyun so dissappointed
lols.kk.jkjk..
so quite alot of 6agapians turned up!
and i was hyper active?
haha..runnin arnd wif sophia and huiting and peeps.
so yups.
we went to eat.
stuff ourselves wif food
den went bowling!
den the guys were into pool
while the gurls bowl.
waha.
tads bout all.
6AGAPE RAWKS!
=)
okies.
my aunt is gettin married soon!
CONGRATS!
waahaha
and i hav to wear two dress-es on tad day
ok laugh ppl.
juz imagine.
ok you may stop laughin.
STOP.
hahaa.=.=
oks
gtg slp liaos
nites!

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I love him all the same

saturday, july 18th, 2009. Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly. Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model. Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt. To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much. Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone. I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride. I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop. 'Smile, even though your heart is aching.' This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial. I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations. Thank you Michael.
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