went to watch HSM3 with my dear 11Dians on fri! the girls in the cinema (not from our class!) started screaming and gushing when Mr blue-eyes-the-colour-of-the-sea ZAC EFRON came out. and they have every reason to be, because the guy is HOT!!!!!! hahahaha! pictures soon. (:
after an intense session of pw at Nash house, I met up with my dearies mingli and jm for dinner! :D jm brought us to this jap place called Nihon Mura. IT ROCKS. I was fully sastified and happy after leaving the place. hahaha!
one of the best deserts I've tried!!!
well.... it was a really fruitful day for us, especially *uhem* yeo jiaming. secret! ;D
Today we had OP rehearsals! I made angie laugh out loud in the middle of her script. HAHA I didnt mean it okay! its because before rehearsals started, angie and I were watching season 2 of Desperate Housewives (I lent her my dvd. BTW CAN SOMEONE PLEEEESE HELP ME BUY SEASON FIVE WHEN U GO OVERSEAS OR STH??? I NEED MY CONTINUOUS DOSAGE!!) on her lappie. So when rehearsals start, I caught her eyes and we both had this common thought : DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES appearing in our heads. So I started giggling (YES, giggling) and angie started giggling too...then for the rest of her reading she didnt dared to look at me. hahahahaha! later on darrell tan asked her the reason and I just told him we had a common thought and he looked kinda amused. HAHA. desperate housewives rocks. yes i know channel five's airing season 4. can they be more updated or sth?
Shannon and I signed up for OBS. I feel like i'm signing myself up for a journey of torture and no return. hahaha okay just kidding. its gonna be my first time (can just hear tommy laughing and calling me noob) and I'm scared/excited/nervous! :D
once upon a time...
1:16 AM
there was a young innocent kid known as 'Ah Boy'.
VILLIAN A- MR HASH BROWN
(not very smart)
'stupid ah boy, i shall get rid of you today!'
'I shall turn you into a hash brown!!'
ah boy: 'hmm. lets see whats in the drawer...'
mr HB: 'OUCH!!'
' ..........'
'oww that hurts...need help!!'
VILLIAN B: Mrs Efron (HAHAHAHAHA) (married and unavailable)
'im hungry, I want my oven-baked cookiess!'
'mwahahah this shall be yr LAST meal you pesky kid!'
'A blow in the head first!'
Ah Boy: 'ow the oven's hot!'
Mrs Efron: 'what's happening?'
'great.'
'ahhhhhhhh!!!!'
'help.....'
'weeee!'
'life is great!'
*yawns*
*dreams of flying sheeps and blue cotton candies*
VILLIAN C: Mr Ali Ba Ba
(sick paedophile)
'hehehe you're mine!!'
'closer....'
'and i'll take the plunge!'
'WHAT?!?'
*groans*
'my head!!'
(sorry was too lazy to complete the lame subtitles)
THE END!!! (totally abrupt I know)
hahaha was bored at IKEA thats all. :D
move on
Tuesday, October 21, 2008 10:35 PM
I may have lost a part of me, I may have cried so many times today from the last time i see his face till the soil covers his coffin, I may have looked around with this silly but persistant hope that the person standing there is him or that he suddenly appears in front of us, smiling and alive, but I know I have to move on.
it takes time I know, and time will help me slowly control these overwhelmed emotions, wrapped the memories nicely and store safely in the deepest part of my heart, to help me cherish the ones around me and slowly start to think of the bright side again, and soon to nurse the headache that I have now from all the crying.
thanks again to those who gave me support. today I received an envelope in my mailbox from my cute classmates from 11D. inside is a slip of paper that contains words of comfort and best wishes. I am glad to have you guys. :)
thank you Lord for being our shepherd, to reserve a place in Heaven for my dearest ye ye. I am happy that he no longer suffers and in years time we will all be re-united with him.
ye ye wo ai ni.
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4:00 AM
I cant believe tommorrow's the last day. I still hope with all my life that this is all a dream.
jun yan and her family came back from america and were there today. I missed her. it is nice to have her around, sunshine has a knack for making people laugh. even though she's younger than me and cried after seeing me cry, she's the one putting her arms around me to comfort me and tell me it'll be fine. Suddenly I seem like the younger one. we talked. she tells me she does not think zac efron is cute and vannessa hudgens pretty but tells me that the high school musical cast are going to hold an autograph session near the place she lives (texas) soon and she says she'll ask zac efron to sign an autograph for me and tell him that i'm her best cousin. haha. that's probably not going to happen, but still, it made me excited. a little. I told her about project work and she ended up helping me design and decroate the props for op. also along with the help of some other distant cousins. funny how it takes something like death to bring everyone together. is he happy to see all of us finally gathered together to see him? if he is why wont he open his eyes? he's probably at a place without pain, a wonderful bright place in heaven. but i still want him back. I want him back.
listened to mariah carey's 'bye bye' today. few weeks ago it is just another soundtrack in my phone. now it is enough to bring tears to my eyes.
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Monday, October 20, 2008 3:27 AM
thanks to those for the encouragment. i really appreciate it.
they have been telling me to be strong, because life has to go on and all I can do is cherish those around me. I have never felt so lost and helpless before. I can cry and kick and scream and ask for time to rewind but things will not change. memories i will keep in my heart, in the most treasured place. I will always remember his smile when I kiss his cheek, his voice, his laughter, the way he hugs me and ask me to study hard and take care of my brother.... i love him too much to just let go. it isnt easy but i'll try.
i'll do anything to not let tuesday come. I dont think I'm strong enough.
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Sunday, October 19, 2008 2:42 AM
i lied. i am not feeling better.
ye ye, wo hao ai ni. dui bu qi wo na shi hou mei you lai kan ni. wo hao hen zi zi de zi si. wo yi wei kao yan shi le jiu neng lai kang ni dan wo que mei you zuo dao. dou shi wo de cuo. wo hao hen zi zi. ni wei she mei mei you deng wo. ni wei shen mei jiu zhe yang zou le. wo bu yao ni zou. wo hao ai ni. i zhen de xiang zai bao ni. wo xiang ting ni he wo shou hua! wo xiang ting ni gao su wo ni xiao shi hou de gu shi. ni mei qi he wo shuo yao yong gong du shu. bu yao he di di chao jia. wo yi ting hui de. ke shi ni wei zhe mei mei you deng wo qing kou gao su ni ni jiu zou le ne. wo you ting ni de hua yong gong du shi. wo hui dui di di hao de. yeye ni bu yao zou. wo hao xiang gen ni shou hua, hao xiang bao ni. dui bu qi.
the pain is unbearable. I never thought it could hurt so much. I cry till i thought i have no tears left. but they keep falling whenever i see his face. i dont want him to go i really dont want. i want to hear his voice. i want to hug him. but i cant do that any more. i love him so much. i feel so guilty. its my fault. me and my selfishness. im so sorry. please dont go. please open your eyes and talk to me. all is of no use any more. he is gone forever.
FM S.H.E! :D
Sunday, October 12, 2008 10:55 PM
I am happy because- 1. Mid-course is over! 2. I bought It Started With A Kiss II, like FINALLY. :D 3. and I bought S.H.E's 11th album, FM S.H.E and pre-ordered their tote bag! mwahahahaha.
totally AWESOME! :D
but I am unhappy because- 1.Holidays are still far far away and pw is killing me (but I like my group HOEA!). 2.I cant believe there's still stupid nma exco meeting. wth. 3. I hate the will I retain or get promoted? atmosphere that seem to be everywhere these days. :S
anyway, on to happier things! I went out with jm and mingli last fri for dinner at newyork newyork. :)
me and mingli went to get free cotten candy for all of us and it was very funny to see that girl try to swirl as much cotten candy as she could using the stick because the more she swirl the more out of control it got. Even though i'll probably won't do a better job myself la. hahaha!
I love newyork newyork! its our second time eating there tgt, haven seen them in AGES since exams started and we all transformed into a full-time mugger with no social life.
liberated part-time mugger now! :D
they're wearing pe tees because they came from school directly to go cycle at east coast without me in the afternoon. pissed off man.
HAHA no la its because I had a pw meeting so i cant make it. Hais gotta make sacrifices for pw sometimes !!! :(
super yummy. :D
we walked around for quite a bit, snack at Andersons [their RUM and RAISIN is my favourite ice cream in the whole wide world), then went home because we're really tired!
its like jc suck the life out of us and turn us into some old ladies who gather to talk abouit our boring life. HAHAHA. well anyway, it was still great to meet up with my two besties nevertheless! :D
okay in total randomness, this is shameless cam-whoring during pw meeting at the Esplanade! (I cant stop laughing at the HILARIOUS ones taken in school. hahaha seriously funny! shall upload them soon). :)
our very cute HOEA team members! haha!
(cuz mr nash/corn dog left so we had the camera all to ourselves! hahaha beware!)
willie's zhap pai dong zuo.
act cute!
I look like I have no neck! hahaha.
today lynette chan sprained her knee (she dislocated it before) during pe and sat on the track in pain. so poor thing! but it was really sweet that most of us stayed back with her and cracked jokes, fool around and try to help her lessen the pain as much as possible. haha here's the absolute truth and nothing else, I really like 0811D. :) hahaha I like how even though we go in groups but there was never cliques, and everyone looked out for one another and laugh things out together as a class. there's a lot of things I like about my class (awww) and i'm really really scared that we're gonna be split up next year. i dont wanna think about it cuz its so damn depressing. i'll look forward to our class outing to watch High School Musical 3 (planned that before exams even started) instead! hahaha!
okay off to bed, goodnight! :)
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and yes of course, Michael Jackson <3
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
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