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Monday, April 30, 2007 6:10 PM

eeee... I heard that CLDDS got bronze, after I reached home.
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If it's last year, I wont be tad sad la.
But I really think this year's one has improvement lor.=(
Damn angry la, dun wan to get bronze lor.
and those who finds it funny, or thinks tad we cldds SHOULD get either cop or bronze because our standard is low, get out of my face okay.
yes I admit, cldds is a slacking cca. but tad doesnt mean we dun put in effort in our plays
If ders one thing I hate, is how the school looks down on CLDDS.
esp. tad stupid mushroom head who rebonded her hair and now looks even worse.
dammit la she. you heard what she said last week during morning assembly, after we have competed in SYF?
She said, 'Guzheng is going to take part in SYF today, and they will be the last performing arts to perform.. err I think CLDDS is moving on too.'
Without elaborating on her lousy usage of english[if you all dun understand, which I cant blame you, she means she thinks that CLDDS's SYF is coming up next], do u get what I mean when I say she looks down on CLDDS?
Our SYF was over a few days ago alr, and she didnt even know.
So it was no surprise tad she didnt announce to the entire school about OUR SYF, like she did with other ccas, so tad the school can cheer for them.
WHATEVER you bias piece of rambutan hair.
Now you happy la, cldds get bronze, you can continue looking down on us for the rest of the years where our juniors have to put up with yr bias-ness and people's scorn.
urgh, now I am not sad, I am angry.
GRR!

haha I think I am weird, getting angry over her.
It kinda seems like I need her approbation to feel glad.
EWW NO WAY, tads not what i'm trying to express.
okay I better stop. the more I think about it, the more disgusted I feel.
=X

ANW! guess you all know about the tiantian thingy?
About her scolding the deceased girl who drowned in the canal on her blog?
haha being the kapo I was, I found this blog[not hers] which has what she wrote in her already-deleted blog, whether those were all her exact words is not so sure la.
To my other kapo friends:
http://www.gossip-ing.blogspot.com/
LOL.
no personal comments la, scared later get beaten up.
lols no la.

and ANW!
being boliao again, I am learning the rao ko long for S.H.E's song zhong guo hua.
hehehehe! and I think I can commit most of it to memory already!
LOLS.
COME TEST ME LA!
-.-
hahaha.. if only im tad confident during exams huh.
LOL.

Tomorrow's LABOUR'S DAY~!
HAHAHAHA!
Thank you all labourers! Thanks to you all I get to sleep late today and wake up late 2moro!
haha crap.

ok nth to say liao.
I like my blog song. :D
and I know the whole rap. :D
LOL okay I know, nth to be proud of.

中國話! PLAY!
Sunday, April 29, 2007 11:34 PM

Alright man! S.H.E's 中國話 MV is out!
LOL.



曲:郑楠词:郑楠 施人诚
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
伦敦玛莉莲买了件旗袍送妈妈
莫斯科的夫司基爱上牛肉面疙瘩
各种颜色的皮肤各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄(仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人好优美的中国话
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
板凳不让扁担绑在板凳上
扁担偏要绑在板凳上
板凳偏偏不让扁担绑在那板凳上
到底扁担宽还是板凳长
哥哥弟弟坡前坐
坡上卧著一只鹅
坡下流著一条河
哥哥说宽宽的河
弟弟说白白的鹅
鹅要过河河要渡鹅
不知是那鹅过河
还是河渡鹅
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话
纽约苏珊娜开了间禅风lounge bar
柏林来的沃夫冈拿胡琴配著电吉他
各种颜色的皮肤各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄(仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人好优美的中国话
有个小孩叫小杜
上街打醋又买布
买了布打了醋
回头看见鹰抓兔
放下布搁下醋
上前去追鹰和兔
飞了鹰跑了兔
洒了醋湿了布
嘴说腿腿说嘴
嘴说腿爱跑腿
腿说嘴爱卖嘴
光动嘴不动腿
光动腿不动嘴
不如不长腿和嘴
到底是那嘴说腿还是腿说嘴
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话

I AM SAD.
12:09 AM

I am happy because...
1] I get to eat the cheesecake on jiaming's birthday and it was SO GOOD. xD
2] I did the stupid ss essay.
3] I did the stupid english essay.
3] I ate a potong ice-cream just now.
4] I ate Mee Pok just now.
5] I ate the cheese hotdog at the pasa malam just now.

I am sad because..
1] I am going to become as fat as moses lim if I continue eating.
2] I didnt get to eat a single grape today.
3] I found this S.H.E blogskin but I cant use it cuz the post area is too cramped. http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=138476&action=Preview
4] 'U' zhou kan said wuzun will experience hair loss if he continues doing vigorous exercise that builds his strong muscles[HOT!]. WHAT KIND OF DAO LI IS THAT I ASK YOU. doing exercise=hair loss? I dun see TERENCE CAO doing any exercies what[it's obvious, just look at him la]. and he's in beijing 101 for more hair because he's is all dropping off/balding.
5] Sometimes I think too much and things that makes me super happy for 1 whole week can make me sad as I know such things rarely happen again.

HAHAHAHAHA. full of rubbish.
Jiaming, I wanted to put all the pictures here de.
But the stupid comp got some problem and it closed my window AFTER I uploaded ALL the pics onto my blog post.
so suay la can.
nvm, I will put it here soon okay! :D
Meanwhile,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIAMING AND YEE EN! :)
wahaha. as I said la jiaming, 16 already right.. stand up to NAPOK la,
dun let him bully you anymore.
LOL.

AND ONE LAST THING.
I STILL DUNNO MY CLDDS SYF'S RESULT.
COP?BRONZE?SILVER?GOLD?GOLD WITH HONOUR?
I honestly dunno okay!
so stop saying I am keeping mum about it cuz actually the truth is that we get COP.
-.- hahaha siao, I keep mum for what. sooner or later aso will know wan wad.
and walao! CLDDS will not get COP OKAY!
THIS TIME OUR PLAY IS REALLY GOOD, MUCH BETTER THAN THE PREVIOUS ONES OKAY!!
:D
















HAHA! DO YOU SEE ME CLAD IN TAD YELLOW APRON?
lol auntie anot?
GUESS WHARE-IS-THE-PERSON-IN-THE-PICTURE GAME:
1]KELMEN
2]NAPOK
3]KEITH
4]BOON SWAN
5] ELAINE
6]SHIRLYN
7]FIONA
8]FELICIA HENG
9]SITING
10]YUNING.
11]FELICIA LIM

LOLOLOL. 3 of the names are the ones holding the 'doors' aka 工作人员s.
and another two's faces cannot be seen.
aiya its damn obvious la.
hahaha just being boliao again. ;D

=D 21st of APRIL=PERFECT DAY.
Monday, April 23, 2007 1:15 AM

OKAY its 1.15 and I decided to post before I go to bed!
And the reason im up so late is because I was busy doing the chem powerpoint presentation!
-.- so stupid lah.
I haven done a powerpoint presentation for three million years already lor.
haha..

ANYWAY SYF WAS FUN. =D
The audience laughed at almost every scene of ours and there was no mistake in our lines!
We were so damn happy!
And our teacher were quite pleased with us too.
hehehehe.. :D
CLDDS RAWKS LA! THE BEST CCA IN THE WORLD!
LOL.
I tried to upload the video of our play but cant, think I got to do something with the format first.
Byt then, you all can see my wonderful acting skills.
LOLS no la..

And as if the day wasn't joyous enough, something else later on TOTALLY MADE MY DAY.
HEHEHE I am going to mai kuan zi and not say what is it.
haha I know you want to know right...
Im sorry but I wun say! NO I WUN! TOO BAD! TOO SAD!
LOL act like you all really interested to know liddat.
but anw im really very happy lar, I dunno how many times I smile to myself like a fool for this whole day already.
heheehhee... xD

HAPPY LIKE SIAO!!!!!!!! =D

sleepy!
Saturday, April 21, 2007 12:04 AM

I have CLDDS SYF 2moro at ulu pandan CC theatre.
lols not VICTORIA THEATRE, is ULU PANDAN CC.
hais so sad.
Lols nvm lar, hopefully nothing goes wrong 2moro!
heheh will be quite exciting 2moro. cant wait. xD
GOLD WITH HONOURS, HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


anw, S.H.E's new album is coming out soon!
'PLAY' ! Heard their '中国话' already, quite cool lar the rao ko ling!
I am going to learn.
LOLS.

This is one of the rao ko lings I know.
四是四,十是十。十四是十四,四十是四十。

HAHAHA LAME!

THIS WEEK IS CRAZY.
Friday, April 13, 2007 10:37 PM

THIS FEW WEEKS HAS BEEN CRAZY.
So many stuff going on, I am so so so exhausted.

2.4km run!

Very tiring.. pushed myself to go on without stopping
for two whole rounds leh!
haha but still I think my timing was not ideal cuz I kept seeing
people overtaking me and carine was a few steps in front of me the whole time.
lols.
oh yea poor fio, she stopped running halfway becuz of a bad stomachache.
Then me and huiting were waiting for her to run past us at the playground
but we waited for so long and she still didnt come.
at the end she have to retake the 2.4 km again.
so suay.=(

Inter-class Netball!

hahaha this is a sensitive topic.
no la, I think the whole matter will blow over after awhile.
Anw, we were the champions of the compeitition[!!] and I
think the whole process was quite fun despite some tension and conflicts. :)
During one match I got hit on the face and felt quite pissed.
lol but mine is nothing compared to some others la, who fell down quite a few times.
aiya game is liddat de ma, frankly i really dunno which side played dirty first but most of the incidents are probably misunderstandings.
even if they're not, its the past alr so we shall all move on!=D

HELPING OUT IN SJAB!

LOL.
ME and HUITING went to help out at st.john by acting as casualties after a gang fight.
we thought it would be quite fun what, can scream and kick up a big fuss and get to have fake bruises and scars.
BUT NO LEH!
It was actually a test for the sjab juniors, and everyone was so serious me and ht were a little stunned.
lols.
We laid onto the floor as told and let the sec1s or 2s examine us and deduce our various injuries.
And I am supposed to have a skull fracture, bleeding palms, and injured thighs.
LOL AND I KEPT ON LAUGHING LIKE HELL.
cuz they ask me for my name and I said,' felicia.. er no,RUHUA.'
So they kept saying, in a VERY SERIOUS MANNER, ' so ure ruhua right? okay dun be scared ok ruhua, you are goin to be fine.. ok ruhua we are bringing u to the hospital where all yr frens can come and visit you.. '
LOLOLOL.
den I keep laughing non-stop.
They touched, starting frm my head, to my waist and my hip, saying in montone,'checking for deformities' repeatedly.
Then one of them will lean down towards my face and asked meng for my breathing rate.
Then the other one will lift up my right leg and placed in on her thigh to rest.
LOL I looked so damn dumb.
and the funniest thing is when they started to bandage my head.
THAT WAS THE LIMIT MAN.
LOL Huiting, who was laying beside me, and fio, who was standing at the side watching, started laughing infectiously, manking it hard for me to close my eyes and act unconscious.
I kept laughing throughout the whole process even tho I REALLY TRIED HARD NOT TO.
Meng had to kick me a little to remind me that I am suppose to be unconsious.
LOL I am such a lousy casualty.
But it was a very refreshing experience.
LOLS.
GO ON! LAUGH ALL YOU WANT! HMPHF!

















OKAY STOP LAUGHING. I SAID STOP! XD

PREPARING FOR SYF!

YES! CLDDS ACTUALLY TAKES PART IN SYF!
lol and we are aiming for GOLD WITH HONOURS okay!
LOL no la kidding, get gold we alr laugh until teeth fall out le.
hahaha.. and nowadays we are practising real hard!=D



CHILDISH!! XD



LOLS. YUNING HATES HIS JOB.






JIAYOU CLDDS!!!!! xD











LASTLY, MY HAIR TIO CUT!

tad ugly monster saw me when she walked past my class and so called me out lor.
Den when me and aw su walked towards the toilet cuz tats wer we thot the suitable place to cut our hair in, tad ugly monster screamed across the general office and blowed her top at us, like we are suppose to know that we shld cut out hair in front of the mirror near the GO and let our hair drop to the floor just like that!
whatever, scream for what. cannot say nicely meh.
I snipped off awsu's hair and the ugly monster let her go off first, telling me she has the courage to snip it all off while I dun.
Excuse me, I was the one who snipped off her hair.-.-
so she kept sending me back in front of the mirror to cut off my fringe myself.
So now I end up with a damn short fringe lor.
but no I didnt shed a single tear.
To be honest, surprisingly, I was not feeling very depressed or anything like that at all.
REALLY. HEY LOOK, MY HAIR NOW LOOK LIKE FANN WONG'S.
LOLS!
Fann wong's recent haircut that got many people critisizing.
LOLS.
This is a new trend man, short fringe.
HAHAHA.

AI DE ZHU XUAN LU BY XIAO GUI AND ZHUO WEN XUAN.
Sunday, April 08, 2007 3:52 PM

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING LAO CAI'S HMK BUT ENDED UP BLOGGING.
LOLS.
ANYWAY I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY SO I SHALL SHARE THIS TWO VIDEOS.

FEILUNHAI-不死之謎
THIS IS THE ONLY SONG I HATE IN FEILUNHAI'S ALBUM.
ITS CRAP LA IT DOES NOT EVEN HAVE A DECENT MV.
HAHAHA WATCH THIS!
THE CHORUS PART DAMN WEIRDAND LAME LEH!
AND NOTICE THE ENGLISH WORDS, SO FUNNY!
LOLS.



BUT STILL FEILUNHAI ROCKS!!!!!!! XD


卓文宣&黃鴻升(小鬼)-爱的主旋律 =D



IDIOT BH STOP SAYING IM OUTDATED.

IT STARTED WITH A KISS 2 IS COMING OUT! XD
Friday, April 06, 2007 7:56 PM

HAHAHA!
ISWAK/ER ZUO JU ZHI WEN 2 is coming out! xD
I CANT WAIT.







JOE CHENG STILL LOOK SO CUTE AFTER HAVING HIS HAIR CUT. AND HE AND ARIEL LOOK SO GOOD TOGETHER. HEHEHE I CANT WAIT. XD

OH YAH.
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY ZHENG XIANG!
hahaha I will wish you again next tues. xD
and I am so so so sorry I cant come today.
Am alr feelin guilty and sad.=(
lols.
OH YA, BY THE WAY, SINCE URE 16 ALR, PLEASE BE MORE MATURE OKAY.

LEARN FROM ME LA. LOLS.

muscle pain ar~~~
Thursday, April 05, 2007 11:09 PM

MUSCLE PAIN AR~~~~
hahaha. Today everyone was talking about their muscles aches and how it hurts to stand up and walk.
lols. All because of the five-item test lar.
I passed all except for STANDING BOARD JUMP.
So angry cuz stupid heng dun let us redo.
Other classes can redo for at least three times leh!
wth. So damn pissed, cannot get gold liao.=(

okay anw, our new emaths teacher is MR WONG, this old guy who reminds me of ELIM.
YES REALLY.
its not that he goes about screaming at us everyday but the way he moves his facial expressions is so alike to her!
Esp. his mouth.
LOL. Sorry lar, it is inevitable not to notice when im sitting in front.
Mr wong very funny, he will put both of his hands in a cross manner above his hips, just like XU CHUN MEI except that he's is inverted.
LOL. den he has a favourite sentence.
' WHY? DONT ASK ME WHY. I DUNNO, THIS FORMULA IS PASSED DOWN BY OUR ANCESTORS 100, or 200, YEARS AGO.'
LOLOLOL!
lame right!
den when he wants to ask us about the ans to a ques he will open his arms and say,'how?how?how?'
LOL I almost burst out laughing.

HOW?HOW?HOW?

OKOK! ANYWAY.
lao cai went mad again today, chasing yee en out of the classroom and
complaining AGAIN that she slept for two hours the day before and that we better not agitate her or she'll slap us.
HA!
CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE HER?
I THINK IS TWO HOURS OF NAP LA! DEN 12 HOURS OF SLEEP!
I dun understand why she thinks we're interested in the no. of hours she sleeps.
its not like we will suddenly decide to be more considerate towards her after lying about the two-hrs thingy.
its so obvious its a lie lor.
JUST LOOK AT HER.

JUST LOOK AT HER.

WAHAHAHA!
Sunday, April 01, 2007 8:49 PM

HEHEHEHE !
NEW BLOGSKIN AND NEW BLOGSONG! :D

CHORUS:


RING A RING A RING
RING A RING A RING
会不会是你 要响几声才能接
心跳的声音 蹦蹦重低音
怕铃声会停 赶快按下通话键
拉长耳朵提高警觉 神经细胞全面戒备
你的电话决不漏接 RING A RING A RING 爱的和弦铃 YA!
管他网外或是网内 月底再考虑通话费
体温已燃烧到沸点 我不怕熬夜 管他黑眼圈 YA!
来电 AGAIN !

-
12:22 PM



WOO!
Many stuff going on these days.=)
Anw the latest is the MEET THE PARENTS thingy.
which I think is a big bore.
I tio mrs see, and she didnt really say much about me.
Just that im a little quiet in class.
ha ha ha. of course la, ders nth much to talk about in her lesson what.
but anw she's leaving zh for six months and it kinda sucks a bit la.
haha even tho she's as boring as a sheet of white paper, and her lessons are dull,
we all kinda got used to it after awhile, and actually started to listen to her talk about vectors.
then now she says she going for personal reasons[THP! lol], and an expeienced old male teacher will take her place.
-.-
scarly mr low take over.
LOL 4e5 can all commit suicide liao.
xD

we went to meet lao cai too.
and when she asks me why I did not score so well for hmt, I almost said,' er because my teacher is metally unstable.'
but I cant, so i just smiled at her.
then she started going on about wanting me to read more chinese books and YOU JIN DE ZUO PIN.
HAHAHAHA.. her favourite author in the whole world.
I kept smiling and she smiled back.
-.- if only she knew why I smile.
ahaha.

moving on..
eng lesson on friday was interesting.
haha. we were in the com lab and someone sitting arnd my area went to my blog,
and conveniently forgot that accompanying my blog comes with the blasting CHAO XI HUAN NI song.
lols so mrs tobias was trying to find out who was the one and nobody admitted.
she tried interrogating us but to no avail.
lol. so she says she will continue with the case next time.
-.-
and gideon kept telling her,' just forget it mrs tobias, its just a song.'
so damn funny la, den mrs tobias kept saying,' why do you wan me to forget it? is the person you?'
then gideon kept denying.
LOLS.
haha frankly I dunno who is the person also.
At first I thought it was huiyun and i sommor turn to her and say,'walao huiyun very loud leh.'
aha but turns out its not her.
hehehe so fun a mystery....

hmmm..
lemme talk about learning carnival.
LOLS I now I very lag but whatever la.
when we were sitting near the parade square watchin the compeition, something funny and to me, scary, happened.
wai hern went to move the potted plant away frm its original position cuz it was blocking his view.
and guess what?
Underneath the potted plant is a whole nest of disgusting black ants!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
and worse, they started getting confused and ran towards our direction.
everyone started screaming and moved away except for WH, who has ants crawling on his leg.
=S
I WAS SO FREAKED OUT.
I had goosebumps on my arms and legs and the hair on my arms all stood.
I shall not elaborate on the part where chia how brushed the ants on me childishly.
I dun think he know me well enuff to understand that I have a serious fear of ants.
I HATE THEM AS MUCH AS I HATE TERENCE CAO.
I think even MORE.
grrrr.. dun wun to say le!

SHALL TALK ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY ON THE 26TH OF MARCH.(:
Didnt went out to celebrate.=(
But quite happy becuz of the pretty presents and cake!=D
After school corine and adeline covered my eyes and led me to 4e6 classroom where fio and huiting and tiffany was with the cake.
then they started singing bdae song for me.=)
I thought it was so damn sweet because frm young I have always wanted to have a surprise birthday cake and I finally got it on my sweet sixteen.
=D
wahahaah.. and AHA! I CAN WATCH NC16 ALREADY!
MWAHAHAHA TOO BAD YOU ALL 15 YEAR OLD KIDS!!!
GO WATCH TEENAGE MUTANT NIGA TURTLES LA!
LOLS!!!
okay kidding kidding.xD
Speakin or movies, I went to watch MR BEAN'S HOLIDAY with my brother and my mother last week.
LOLOLOL.
and it is not funny at all okay.

I only laugh OUT LOUD for one part of the movie tads all.
I really dun understand why the lady sitting on my left was laughing so hard at all the not-so-funny parts.
hahaha maybe my sense of humour is too chim.
lol hais 16 yr olds like me shouldn't be watching such movies lar.. too childish alr.
LOL! Okay I noe I sound childish.


now I shall talk about sports day.
it was a big yawn.
The climax of the day was when mrs maybrie ang chai mai mai ran in the pass-the-baton thingy.
LOLOLOL.
Our whole class stood up and started chanting,'MAI MAI! MAI MAI!'
walao.. dunno whether she heard us anot.
hahha.. then when mingli and I saw her doing warm-up we started laughing like mad.
HAHAHAHA.. cuz its so weird to see yr form teacher do warm-up!

LOL.
The day ended with a class photo and everyone posing as hitler[raising the arm action].

















HAHA SO CUTE!
I MEAN ME.
lols. xD

WELCOME:)


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I love him all the same

saturday, july 18th, 2009. Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly. Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model. Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt. To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much. Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone. I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride. I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop. 'Smile, even though your heart is aching.' This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial. I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations. Thank you Michael.
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