i read my very first post which i posted on the very first day fiona helped me create my blog, along with the other subsequent posts following. and i must say i got quite a shock at the way i type last time. the way i typed,is the way i won't ever ever type now. for example, the entry on 5/04/2005 ... okaes.im updatin.after so mani ages.haha.erhz..2dae gort home at around 4.00 sometin..cuz i need to stayy bcc in skool ferr the life science report thingyy..which i owe miss tan ferr so damn loong..aso got bacc our english ca1 markss..total got 63.1..same as ian..hahax..yikkes..exams cumin liaoz..muz mak diss post short lehz..hahaz..i dis is not call guai..is call lin shi bao fuo jiao..i stupid stupid thot yesterdaee was my hmt exam..den i dumb dumb go studii lik mad..den 2moro go skool i go findd huiting den she tell me i see wronglyy..aarrrggghhhhhh!!!!! studii untill so late dunnoe ferr wad..i so blur nowadaes..lolxx..kkaes..i gtgs studii liaox..hahaz..i'll probabli slack again afterr awhile.hahax.byeeeeeee!!!x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- OMG. is tad really me??? i am in absolute disbelief now. are u aso? hahaa.. i didnt rmb tad i ever typed in dis manner. its so.......not me. but its interesting to find out how much i changed over the years. erm,i read some OLD posts and as i read them, alot of memories came flowing back. good,bad,hilarious,sad... =)
lemme bring the e2s back in time... blogged this a loooooooong time ago.. rmb the time wer the even number peeps had to learn to sing a song and learn a dance frm me to go to the cheshire home? LOLS. the guys were groaning and moaning. and we made u all sing the song in the 'conferance room' at amanda's house again and again.. until u were all shouting the song instead of singing it instead. haha..den the gurls went to amanda's room and learn the dance..again and again.. thinking back..its really fun..=) oh ya!i rmb tad time wen miss see teached us the can-shaking thingy.. LOLS. tad was really funny! we were playing with our cans those few days. and even had compeititions during recess to see hu is the fastest. i rmb compeititing with joycelyn and i think i lost. hahaha.. really grateful for all these great memories. haha.. and i rmb wen miss tan seow lan was in very good terms with us(althou i duuno y she dorta dislike us all of a sudden..shall we ask her to cum for our gathering??=X) and chester was the punctuation man.. hahaa..and ah gong was the dictionary man issit? haha..and we played lucky nunbers. lols.i rarely got called in lucky numbers..yays! haha..but the lesson with her was interesting.. and i rmb one time wen miss tan was telling us about sth about the heart and we will die if we hit one part of the heart forcefully.. den ian said sth about the gorilla thingy which it will hit its heart and die becuz of tad gorilla action.. and everyone burst out laughing..(i tink only 2e2 ppl will get what i am saying) ..haha..bits and bytes of memories cum flowing back.. yar.. i aso rmb the time wen our class went for excursions and the gurls at the back fo the bus(including me) started playing zhong zi mi maand sang stupid songsand disturbed john yeo. .lols. and someone still owe as a dare hor..ahhaa.. and i aso rmb huiyun's bdae wer almost every lesson we will ask the teacher to sing a bdae song for her juz to irritate her.. hahaha..=) i rmb goin to the jui dui superstar concert with shumin and met melissa. haha.. yeah. .a night to rmb.. and yeah.. i rmb we had dis camp is the hols.(ernest was in my grp right?) and we had dis fabulous campfire.. wow.. we were singing..dancing...cheering..shouting...screaming..clapping.. we made so much noise tad the residents complain and the police came! haha..MARY MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(i really missed tad..can we do it again if we have the chance???xP) we aso had macdonald's for breakfast right..hehe..sausage macmuffin.x) and we learnt campfire songs..=) hmmm...rmb tad time wen we had ALOT of hol hmk which the teacher sent us thru mail?hahaha..tad was hell! haha..oooh i rmb the teacher day concert! mwahhahaa...tad time me and joycelyn and shumin and yang qian and amanda danced the britney spears song.. hahaha..and we thought we would not get picked becuz auditions turned out to be so bad(stage fright)! but at the end there we are. on stage..all frighened and nervous.hahaa..=) rmb wen we went to the chinatown heritage?? all the old old things.. quite fun.. now about the bbq.. we helped to defrost the food.. and even fed three cats!haha.. som of us went to play bumber car and viking and mini roller coaster at the funfair near our bbq pits.x) hmm.rmb the science excursion??? wer we watched the 'digistar' ?? and it felt so good to sit der with u all and looked up to see those 'stars'.. hehee..rmb the time wen miss see was changed to miss leong and we(girls) cried and hugged miss see? and we reall hated miss leong den..(no mor now la..right?) haha..we rushed to find miss loo,mrs wong,mr lim....to ask for help. lols.crying all the way. and miss loo led us to sit on the floor in the general office and gave us all a talk.. hahaha.how strange..yeah..im sure der are much mor memories..ppl dun forget dem ok!!!!!=)rawk on!.=)2E2'05!!! ----------------------------------------- wow.if i didnt blog it down,would i still rmb all these? hmm..maybe.. lols im just saying that, to see the things,even the minor ones,that happen to u before,might be a shock. u will scratch yr head and wonder 'since when did that happen?' .... haha i dunno how to explain.. hmm..to get wad i mean, all bloggers go read yr very first blog entry and you'll get wad i mean. read those old old posts..and marvel at how mature u become now.. lols no la jk. ok crap. byebye.=)
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
