The first time some pathetic pervert tried to look at places he shouldn't be looking was when I was in primary school. Second time,aso in primary school.(in Bishan J8,Popular bookstore FYI,so girls,be careful when you all go there to read okay..) Other times,in places such as stupid swimming pools. Like damn shyt. But hey, they didn't manage to get sastified because I'm smart enough to escape 'unscathed',or maybe Im just plain lucky. Yeah guess what. I met with another one of these losers in bus 82 today. I was sitting there,placing my head comfortably against the bus window and trying to sleep. But it was hard when the man sitting behind you,kept farting. yeah. Two times. I tried to avoid shooting rude stares behind and proceeded with my attempt to sleep. I woke up instinctively when my bus arrived at my stop. But when I woke up,I heard this sound behind me and I turned around just in time to see the farting man pulling back his outstretched hand from next to my seat,near the window. SUCKER. Not only does he farts,but he prys on innocent girls on the bus. Luckily I woke up in time. So I marched off and got out of the bus. Before I got off,I turned back to shoot a dirty glance at tad man who tried to get fresh with me but I realised he's not at his seat. SO HE WANTS TO GET OFF THE BUS TOO HUH. Totally pissed off, I just marched straight home and making sure NO STUPID FARTING MAN is stalking me. what an ass. haha. unlucky day.
okay so anyway, as you all has not already know,I joined Modern Dance and my very first lesson,for me,was ytd(thurs)! I went with cinny(zhilei ps me!hmph!haha).. The instructor was young,hot,and speaks in a china accent. she's nice actually,and she is so graceful! She taught us to do alot of exercises(the gym ppl will know) that got me stretching and straining,and panting. hahaha.. then we learn some dance movements. After evrything ended,I was feeling very refreshed! oh yeah,and expectedly,only girls joined. No boys. hha ya I think It'll be really weird if guys join cuz the movements are more for girls la.(: I'll have to attend more lessons before I can officially comment on this bl0g that 'Modern Dance Rawks!'. It so tiring..lols
hmmm.. about the debate. It was frightfully fun! really. Desai lost.. but I'm actually not very saddened by tad fact. Because I totally enjoyed the process. Findin relevant points through the internet,spending hours on my case proper,asking around for different opinions and arguments,meeting up with ka and kx to discuss our speech.. It was quite nice la..=D I know when I was up there,some things happen below. Fiona told me, and I cried in front of Jlau and her. haha how embarrassing,but I've decided to ignore and just wash the incident out of my brain,which is used to store better things instead. I was hurt,but I guess that's just how some people do and say things. I can't stop them,all I can do is just ignore.waste of time getting hurt or angry. =) When I was on stage and the first speaker,I was so nervous! I tried to give eye contact to the judges as much as possible,as well as my opponents. while reading my case proper and trying not to mispronounced 'monotonous toil'. haha. I almost mispronounced it on stage again! But I correct myself halfway. haha.. the wrong one is of course,'mo-no-toe-nous' and the correct one would be,'-me-no-te-nous' hehee.. I said,'mo-no'then stopped and said,'me-no-te-nous'. lols. ma lu.. but anyway, The debate was fun but it was freaking warm up there! I kept wiping off my sweat and trying to stay focused on what the hell was zhuo en talking. haha..
well,elaine lam told us she was leaving in 2 weeks time. fast,isn't it? Sh'e a really nice and lenient teacher. except that she gave me one demerit point once for not handing up my hmk on time. haha. But she's quite patient and I always see her coming near my side of the classroom to explain to zhengyan and keith how to do maths problems. haha.. And I'll also miss discussing about the outfits she wears to class everyday. haha..Sometimes,me and kkw would discuss and conclude tad her outfit on this particular day made her hips look bigger,or that the skirt so does not match her top.. lols. but her dressing sense is not bad la.(haha in case she happens to chance upon my blog!=X) ohwells,I SO HOPE WE WOULD'NT GET MR LOW!!!!!!! if we do,I think our whole class will allied with 3e4 and go on a peitition!! hahaha.. =p keep our fingers crossed!
Ok,I shall stop here. gtg sleep.. goodnights.=)
P.S hey you-know-who-you-are,I'm really sorry. Dun blame me okay.=(
yohoho!
Sunday, July 23, 2006 4:49 PM
I have not update my blog for AGES!=X
Ok.I shall start by saying that.. JOAN TOLD ME THAT ER ZUO JU ZHI WEN 2 IS COMING OUT NEXT YEAR!!!!!! woohooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!=D Can't wait.. Its gonna be xiang qin's and zhi shu'a life after marriage! and along with third parties! Gosh! Compass Point is selling the DVD(with rea;;y nice cover!) of er zuo ju zhi wen for$23.90 I think. How cheap is tat? J8 sells three volumes of EZJZW VCD sets, a total of $53 plus! -.- the difference. Im so gonna buy that DVD.x)
I watched PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN-DEAD MAN'S CHEST YTD AT 11.30pm with my family! yoohoo! It was alright la..but I preferred the first one though. The second one's didn't end with an expected or happy ending. Instead,It naturally tells you that this whole movie will be continued next year. PFTC is a trilogy! wow cool. just like Lord Of The Rings. and i dig captain JACK SPARROW! Johnny Depp is seriously rawking in the movie. You really can't help but prefer him then Will Turner. Not that Orlando Bloom isn't charming.(: And aso,Elizabeth Swann(keira knightly)might fall in love with jack sparrow! hahhaa..I mean,it seems impossible but you would have discovered small little hints indicating that her heart truly lies with sparrow! wahaha.. if that's it,then... I would be happy too I guess. But this possibility is very small so.... haha
anyways,I went out with some of my 6A friends ytd. Initially wanted to catch a movie,but decided against it as most of them had watched. Saw ah gong and jiayan at J8 doing Flag Day, and Oswell going off to his tuition at arnd Orchard there.(crossing the road while reading a book is dangerous you know.) haha.. We went to walk arnd.. and took neoprints and stuff. Haven seen them for quite a long time.. it was pretty awkward at first but later on everything went well!=D
Went to meet Kai Xiang and Erika at J8 just now to discuss about out debate on tuesday! preparations and stuff.. I'm the first speaker(haha I dun have to rebut on anything!=D),erika's the second and joycelyn's the third. kai xiang helps to find info for us. I would be lying to say im not nervous. haha.. must cheer me on okay! Hopefully nothing goes wrong and I'll end my case proper in time. hahahah.. wish me luck!=p
Went back to Kuo Chuan just now. Nobody was in the school so i took the liberty of touring the whole school until I shuang. ALOT of memories came flowing back and at one time,when I saw this picture on the wall,tears sprang to my eyes. hahahaha.. woah emotional. lols but I really missed those times! Wonder how some of my previous teachers are doing... =)
ok gtg start writing my 'speech' for tuesday! scared! hahah.. support desai OK! =D byebye!
P.S btw,the motion is 'This house supports death penalty'. we are the propos.=X
Sunday, July 16, 2006 12:30 AM
SCANDAL - vanness and kangta
TADA! =D
I personally like the Korean version of Scandal! Oh and their song 127 days,is incrdeibly nice too.(:
Going to Ang Mo Kio NTUC there 2moro to do CIP. AGAIN. but now,its SIX FREAKING HOURS under the hot sun going arnd asking ppl to donate. ohwells..Its for the greater good. but Im gonna smuggle some of the key chains for myself! wahaha.. I dun think those ppl who donates cares much about the keychain lars.
P.S Norman Then is out! Support Paul Twohill! *swings head purposely to let hair fall over eyes* lols x)
Friday, July 14, 2006 10:17 PM
Kangta and Vanness Wu- Scandal MV
anyway, as you can infer, im now into Scandal! Its a song title, sung by vanness and kangta(a korean)!=D And it has three versions, all sung by them! 1.korean version 2.chinese version 3.english version Rawks lor. hhaa.. and the MV is super HOT!=D But im not like their super big fan of sth, I just like the MV and the song alot.. hehee so i decided to return my e2 blogskin back to 2e2 blog and change this new one!(:
Btw i can't believe im gonna say this but Chia How Rawks. hahaha.. he saved my day ytd! It's about modern dance but i ain't gonna elaborate. Come find me if u wanna know the details. x) (anyway, Chia How's still as idiotic when it comes to some matters la.wahaha)
anyway,my GCE 'O' Level oral was so sucky! I mean,the passage was really easy but the conversation part.. 'Now,sending greeting cards through email has surpassed the way of sending Greeting cards by writing down yourself and sending it through mail. What are your views on this matter?' -.- I mentioned about convenience. I mentioned about the sincerity.(the two words,' chen ken' I have repeated for like five times!) I mentioned about creativity(own designed greeting cards would be better than computer-designed ones) blah blah blah.. Then I paused for awhile..... Then I expected her to prompt me any moment but she didnt! argh.. so i was there racking my brains and saying..err...ah... Then FINALLY she prompted me. so i blabber on abit.. then i was finally released. brr...scary.. haha
P.S OSWELL,ask oswell to return my wallet!!!! I need my ez-link card back!! aaaaahhh.. x)
=(
Tuesday, July 11, 2006 8:38 PM
I lost my blue converse wallet today. It was a gift from my primary school friend. I think someone stole it. I was frantic and totally lost. But Fiona,Jonathan Lau and Zhen Wei helped me. Walking with me to the library and asking the librarian.. Going to my classroom two times and searching high and low for my wallet.. Making another trip down to my locker to see if I left it there.. another trip to the chemistry lab to try our luck. On our way to the bus interchange,Jonathan,as usual,started picking on Zhen Wei whatever he does or says,or even though he doesn't says anything. Fiona laughs madly and add in tons of sacarstic remarks. Zhen Wei was totally helpless and tried to rebuke Lau but naturally failed again and again. Throughout my walk to the bus interchange,I didn't felt as lonely as I thought I'll feel. In the bus,Fiona crapped her usual rubbish and got me into uncontrollable laughter. I almost cried..not because im sad,but because I was laughin too hard. From the moment I lost my wallet till the moment I got off the bus and walk home,the terrible feeling was still there. But it isn't that strong anymore. My mood,surprisingly,lightens. so I just wanna say thanks to all three of them. Jonathan Lau for being Jonathan Lau. Zhen Wei for being Ah Gong, and Fiona for being Fiona. hahaha..I know I may sound kinda emotional but im sincerely glad to have these three friends.(of course there are other friends too whom im glad for la) .
Your schemes and little tricks are not gonna work on me. Trust me. You try so hard to bring me down, put in so much effort to make my feel stupid, lemme tell you. Its no use. Continue doing these little tricks and I'll despise you even more than I already am. you little loser. P.S. Flag Day today was fun! haha=D esp in the home econs room.
'I pass by 70plus marks.'
Monday, July 10, 2006 5:55 PM
look at that phrase.
how do you interpret it? 1. 70+50 marks=120 marks. Means you add the passing mark,50,to this mark you said you passed by.. OR 2.70plus marks exactly. No addition or subraction. Means simply I pass by scoring 70plus marks.
Which is the correct one? wahaha.. cuz I was chattin with fiona on the way to the bus interchange today when we got into a debate on this. Fiona said it is 1, I chose both,including the second one.
hmmm.. anyway, THE NEXT TEN QUESTIONS.=) [RULES:Bold the statements that are true to you.Italise the statements that you WISH are true.Leave the Fibs alone.Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.]--->for convenience sake.
I'm TOTALLY smart. [I'm not gonna be an asshole by bold-ing this statement.haha] I've broken someone's bones.[ha I wish I had the ability to do that] I'm paranoid sometimes. [who isn't? I try not to let it get into me] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. [hmmmmmm...wow tat's a good deal y'll know.haha..but i guess not la.] I need money right now. [BROKE LIKE HELL] I I love sushi. [not all but most of them.esp when dey have the small tiny orange eggs.x)] I talk really,really fast. [sometimes only.so that I can compete against fast-talkers such as J lau or Leo Alan] I have long hair.[uhuh] I have lost money in Las Vegas. I have at least one sibling. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. [wahaha..those tiny fake plaits? I wore them when I was really young.=D]
OK! next 10 another day! Haven been blogging lately cuz im kinda busy doing this class video, AS YOU CAN SEE IN MY BLOG. It's done and it's really superb. I have uploaded it to YOUTUBE! it's under '2e2'05' here's the url--> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIDFh1Kz2co wahaha.. IT RAWKS !=D
btw,on sunday,I went to Bugis for flag day. It's a CLDDS thingy to earn CIP points. I am certain that i repeated,'would you like to donate some money for the singapore heart foundation?' more than 100 of times. seriously. the whole thing was four hours(me and fiona slacked a bit!).. but my can was almost filled to the brim!! wahaha..felt sastified.
oh ya,i got really strange reactions from some ppl when I approached them. One was really rude and snapped at me saying,'can u please don't interupt when we are talking?' WHAT CRAP! He's the only person who said this. And all he has to do is shake his head and say NO what. so i have to follow behind him and wait until he stop talking till i approached him issit? If that's the case,then I would only collect a few pathetic dollars in my can during this four hours cip project! argh. so anyway, old ladies and men are generally the most kind. They come up to me to donate their money.. there's this guy who was kinda walking real fast like he's in a hurry..I went up to ask him and try my luck.. he reached into his pocket and dumped quite a few coins in my hand. he even had time to take the sticker! hahaha..cool. But there's this uncle who has PINK,yes PINK,skin,walking along slowly. I went and ask him politely and guess what he did? He quickened his steps and look in the other direction,walk down the stairs in this rushed manner,and looking back once or twice to see if im still standing there! -.- He acted like im some molester or sth! that was the weirdest one. The rest were ok,I like it when they SMILE and reject. Better than just ignoring you and treating you like you're invisible. so just for the record, the lowest amount I got was 20cents. Highest,2 dollars. yup. but every cent counts!=) another thing. some anuties were really nice. they were carrying so much plastic bags filled with grocery or other heavy stuff but they still made the effort to take out their wallets and donate. ooh ya an ironic thing. I saw quite a number of males smoking there. y'll think dey wouldn't give a damn about wad singapore heart foundation. But when asked to donate,they do! Its so ironic really. They're donating to a foundation where there are patients with heart problems,some probably due to the the cause of smoking! and there they are,smoking and donating to people who have heart problems becuz of smoking. haha..
pictures!
yes we look spastic with the stickers on our face! =D support Singapore Heart Foundation!
The cans and the stickers.
=D
-.-
Wednesday, July 05, 2006 8:44 PM
look(not read) at this. [not mine btw] ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ RULES:Bold the statements that are true to you.Italise the statements that you WISH are true.Leave the Fibs alone.Then, stab 5 people to do the same test. I miss somebody right now. (i miss elim. i think shes the chio-est teacher in the school.)I dont watch TV these days. (i stare at boxes only.)I wear glasses or contact lenses. (i wear spectacles.)I love to play video games. (i would do something else. ha.)I've tried marijuana. (tasty.)I have been in a threesome. (you meant when i f*ck?)I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (DUH.)I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (ernesty?)I curse sometimes. (i wish i really curse sometimes.i meant i dont curse at all now and before.)I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (i wish to be more wrongly-minded.)I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (i love to play violin.)I'm TOTALLY smart. (of course.)I've broken someone's bones. (my sister's barbie doll.)I'm paranoid sometimes. (i'm scared that the barbie doll will coem back to kill me.)I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (i am perfect.)I need money right now. (to find a postitute.)I love sushi. (those real sticky ones with white liquid all dripping out.)I talk really,really fast. (i learnt from ivan chang to shoot him back.)I have long hair. (they are rather pretty.)I have lost money in Las Vegas. (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, vegas song.)I have at least one sibling. (i have 100.)I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (i have one whole box of them.)I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (no comments.)I like the way i look. (i said i am perfect.)I am usually pessimistic. (then i can the darkest person.)I have a lot of mood swings. (puberty.)I have a hidden talent. (yeah. everybody knows that.)I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (salt inculsive.)I have a lot of friends. (very lot.)I am currently single. (those that wants to be my stead raise up your hand.)I have pecked someone of the same sex. (huh?)I enjoy talking on the phone. (prank-calling.)I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (i live without any pants.)I love to shop. (cool.)Enjoy window shopping. (less cool.)I would rather shop then eat. (more cool.)I don't hate anyone. (im no b-square-over-4-a-c.)I'm a pretty good dancer. (everyone agrees with chori.)I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (my mother is a pretty lady.)I have a cellphone. (i wish i have a cellphone. can someone please buy one for me? those interested can ask your friends for my cellphone number.)I believe in God. (wow. im no ryan khoo.)I watch MTV on a daily basis. (ha.)I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (thats very little too bad.)I've rejected someone before. (no comments.)I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. (i want to be a fireworks-maker.)I want to have children in the future. (this is not the main topic. its all about the process of making.)I have changed a diaper before. (i wish i helped the earthworm changed his.)I've called the cops on a friend before. (my friend is a cop?)I'm not allergic to anything. (teachers?)I have a lot to learn. (not from teacers when im allergic to them.)I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (sexy.)I am shy around the opposite sex. (thats good.)I have tried alcohol before. (and i set myself on fire.)I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (huh? chim-alogy.)I own the "South Park" movie. (what?)I would die for my best friends. (if only they die first. but they must eat shit in the very beginning.)I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (i think my house has the best person sitting in front of the com.)I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (they flirt with me. not the other way round.)I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (they have beautiful faces.)Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (i rather have other things.)I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (i love sbsp, oswell.)I am happy at this moment! (no comments.)I study for tests most of the time. (what kind of test?)I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (i wear velcro.)I am comfortable with who I am right now. (the perfect person?)I have more than just my ears pierced. (imagine.)I walk barefoot wherever i can. (like those hu-ga-sa-ga.)I have jumped off a bridge. (and i died.)I love sea turtles. (they are soft.)I spend ridiculous money on makeup. (ha.)Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (to kill keng chong.)I'm proficient in a musical instrument. (you mean my mouth?)I worked at McDonald's restaurant. (serve people? nah.)I hate office jobs. (im the boss.)I love sci-fi movies. (im not ngiam zhen wei or jlau.)I think water rules. (i love to pee.)I went college out of state. (im not even in college.)I like sausages. (maybe amanda's one.)I love kisses. (muack.)I fall for the worst people. (everyone is perfect. just below me.)I adore bright colours. (yeah. yeah.)I can't live without black eyeliner. (im more sexy that way.)I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing. (no comments.)I usually like covers better than originals. (huh?)I can pick up things with my toes. (im not an idiot without fingers.)I can't whistle. (im civilised.)I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. (im bai-se from the chinese novel.)I have ridden/owned a horse. (horsey.)I still have every journal I've ever written in. (i write journal every hour.)I can't stick to a diet. (im too fat.)I talk in my sleep. (yeah. i listen to myself talk.)I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (sexual?)Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. (falling down is a good exercise.)I have jazz in my blood. (shake-shake.)I wear a toe ring. (sexy.)I have a tattoo. (same of that on chenying. wow.)I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with. (then sit.)I am a caffeine junkie. (i love milo.)I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. (ha.)I have been to over 15 conventions. (what?)I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better. (karang guni.)I'm an artist. (i draw beautiful pictures.)I only clean my room when necessary. (its not necessary.) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I WANT TO STAB ERNEST LEONG. Siao la so long the whole thing! and me,being quite an impatient person la, will be very pissed off at the ninth or tenth question and just give up doing this whole thing.like the one i did when richmond tagged me to do. But... im gonna do this. just not the whole thing at once. tad would at least take more more than 2hrs. so i shall start with the first 10questions. the next post will be another 10. so on and so forth. make things easier for me.and you. ok.
RULES: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
I miss somebody right now. I dont watch TV these days. [watch too much results in dozing off in class the next day] I wear glasses or contact lenses. [spectacles=glasses wad ernest leong.] I love to play video games. [waste of time killing stupid creatures and getting so excited over it] I've tried marijuana. [ernest bold-ed this one. hahaha.total crap. WHO BELIEVES HE TAKES DRUGS?] I have been in a threesome. [hmm.no.] I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. [NO. and ernest is so lying about this one! still say wad,'honestly is the best policy. wad ernesty. crap crap crap] I curse sometimes. [duh. i'm minor compared to those 'daidi players' in e5 who never fails to proudly shout out fuck and other ones like wad knnbcjb,which i have never used once in my life. haha. omg can u believe ernest's answer?--->i wish i really curse sometimes.i meant i dont curse at all now and before.] I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. [alot. many things changed and i've kinda learnt how to see some things in a different light.=)] I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. [ha ha. to stab who? ernest leong ar?]
Oh im done. and come to realise it,I commented mostly on ernest's 'truthful' answers instead. but seriously, i can spit blood looking at his answers, just as much as i want to spit blood looking at the remaining questions left for me.
haha x) so anyway.. i'll continue 10 more questions at my next post.
On Sunday, I went to the Satay House at East Coast with my family and my cousin's family. After eating, my brother, my cousin, and I went to the beach and it was really dark there. As we were bored, we played alot of childish and silly games that is not really suitable for us.except for my brother of course. but still,it was quite fun! haha we played 7-up, compete laps barefooted on the sand(they were exceptionally softer as usual), A-E-I-O-U, Catching and spinning arnd and den trying to walk in a straight line. hahhaha yes lame i know. then later my aunt came and helped us build small bombs on the beach and we were supposed to play catching wihout stepping on the bombs. wahaha...I felt like i was back in primary school playing in the school carpark next to the eco-garden. x) I missed those times.
So after getting all sweaty running arnd on soft sand, we went to the big screen at the Satay House to watch World Cup, Portugal VS France.
And when France won the penalty shoot-in and enter te finals,
this guy at the next table was all,'f*ck f*ck f*ck!!'
and the guy next to him was like,'GOOD JOB!'
-.- walao.
hahaha..
I,on the other hand,am neutral to both teams.
But now,since France and Italy and competing in the finals,
I SHALL SUPPORT FRANCE.
wahaha..simply because France starts with an F,
and F represents my name!
lols..
Hopefully Italy fans wun come spam my tagboard.
...
Anyway, I've signed up for Modern Dance!
In case for those clueless, its a cca the school is trying out and if it works, it will officially be the new cca in zhonghua !
hmm.. thought i'll give it a try..
=)
I heard the teacher is 20years old.
5years older than us only!
haha im anticipating what she will teach us..x)
okay i gtg..
P.S I nose bleed last week, bled so much until i spit out blood two times! It was so scary that i cried leh.. hehee =X
Oh ya, I'm strangly happy that oswell got detention because he was late leh! wahaha.. I am so saddistic(i laughed every time i saw a soccer player fall down in a weird manner)... hahaha
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
