I once read that life is like this dark and pitch-black tunnel where you can't see a thing. You feel frightened, but as the train chugged patiently along, the scary darkness eventually ends and the comforting sunlight in the distance slowly greets you. There is this phase that everyone has to go through one point or another in life. As tough and threatening as it may be, it will pass. Time buries and heals all wounds. Making them disappear is not possible as it will forever be penetrated deeply down in our hearts where one day will be dug up as memories start to flow back. Each wound tells a life-lesson. Heck what those people say. You are yourself, and if those people are the ones who've changed, who cannot accept you for who you are, then for all I care get out of the tunnel all by yourself.
Yet some, even as you least expected it, will be there to bring and guide you out of this tunnel, and is sincere and grateful just as you are to him/her. These are the people you really must treasure, go through thick and thin together. The journey ahead is long and probably tedious, many people yet to meet. Some that appears, they are great and wonderful people. They bring some light in the tunnel, and even though you may be having a bad day or are feeling like trash, they will be there to listen and give advice. But some, they seemed to be the nicest people on earth. Always trying to make an effort in proving that they are kind, they are gracious, they are generous. But one glance and you can tell they are fakes. Do not be confused between the ones who are real and the ones who are fake. Distinguish the fakes, they are often really selfish at heart. They think of their own interests, is self-centred but appear kind and caring to gain people's trust and superficial friendship. They care a lot of what people think of them, whether they are popular, or pretty...etc. It is pretty obvious. People who are friends with those living on fakes smiles and using a personality that's not even theirs will complain of being tired and having a sense of insecurity. Yet they choose to continue what they're doing. Because if they don't, they will be 'kicked out' of the 'group', or the clique if that's what you want to call it. I laugh at this pathetic situation. Nobody have the right to 'kick' people out. Who the hell made them king and queens? Since when do they have the authority to decide who can speak up and who has to quietly stand in the corner? Is there a reason? Unless those people chose to keep mum all the way, do not try to even label them with anything. Not losers not rejects not loners not anything. In fact, have you ever wonder that they probably chose this path, to escape and run away from that suffocating air and deciding to take a new fresh one? who knows? The air on the other side of the tunnel may even be better.
P.S. Yes I am at home posting this, not outside carrying tin cans and asking people for their donations. I wished I could be doing flag day[hey I actually find joy in helping to fill up the entire can with coins okay.(:] but I can't cuz I'm still down with flu that gets worser day by day and cough. Some people I know will gladly take my place to skip flag day. LOL.
Also, in my above post, I am not specifically pin-pointing at anyone, nor am I referring the situations to myself. I am speaking in GENERAL, that there are such people around. And if you think I've been one before, then I sincerely apologise. The last few sentences, I don't even know what I'm saying. haha..
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
