you know what, i think everything's gonna be fine.
Thursday, June 24, 2010 10:30 PM
yes i still miss my kids alot!
i wanna go see the MJ showcase this sat!!! but now i'm not so sure
2am is coming, YAY. KWON-AH!
I have a test on tuesday, need to study for it *groans*
currently watching 90210 season 1 on dvd! hahaha its not bad, the usual girl boy stuff (just a liiiitle less intense than gossipgirl)
and this ends my completely random post.
hahaha byeeeeee
Glee - Defying Gravity
Thursday, June 03, 2010 12:45 AM
I honestly speaking (sigh) am a.. gleek now.
kurt and rachel's rendition of 'defying gravity' is so so amazingly good.
and chris colfer is my fav character on glee. (:
I've finished season 1 and it isnt as good as desperatehousewives or gossipgirl FOR SURE
but i like it cause its different? instead of feeding on really dirty scandals or evil schemes there seems to always be an underlying good wholesome message sent across after each scene, mostly through the songs. which are not performed in a cheesy way, most of the time. haha
the show's lacking in witty lines tho, but still good, somehow.
haha anyway its gonna premiere soon! and i'm kinda excited cuz everytime the commercial comes up my bro and I recognizes the lines and the characters so we'd just look amazed and think its so cool.
HAHAHA okayokay i know i know
but I can assure its really not anything like HSM (except both male leads are cute, but zac efron is hotter. ;) )
anyway!
I've stopped working in my childcare a while ago now
and sighs, its incredibly upsetting.
I love the kids there and I've become more sensitive to their character, eating and sleeping habits, temper, mood, feelings..
its just hard to say goodbye.
I dunno how long will they remember me after that but I hope its not so soon :(
yanhao, i miss hearing you say you love me everytime I walk past
wesley I miss waking you up from sleep and cuddling you in my arms and kissing your angel face (but what lies beneath omg HAHA)
jing hang I miss carrying you and just smiling foolioshly at that mischievous smile of yours
hai yang I miss your voice repeating 'good morning who?' and 'good boy' after me and i miss making you stop crying and be the one you go to when anyone starts scolding you :'(
zi qian I miss feeding you water cause you always are so lazy to drink yrself haha and I miss you clapping your hands enthusiastically and nodding your head sidebyside when we sing songs.
fiona I miss you tapping on my back for no reason and just smiling when I turn to look at you
xi min I miss how you forget that I raised my voice harshly to you and the very next day you come hugging me like nothing's happened. I feel amazed everytime I see how children can never hold grudges and it makes me feel ashamed
I miss everyone, a lot.
haha even though there are some good things im happy about leaving there but nah not gonna bother mentioning now.
till we meet again!
WELCOME:)
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PO TAY TO, PO TAH TO
RAH RAH SIS BOOM BAH
BYE!
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
