I just want to rewind, go back to when I was young, lay on the bed and watch kids central all day.
And not now, when everything is not going right and you have no choice but to push on
Wednesday, February 23, 2011 5:02 AM
ever since FOC'10 I wanted to be an OGL.
its just a post but to me it really changes a person and I want to be part of that process.
But I guess things just don't go your way sometimes.
even though I tried my best.
I'm super tired.
because Hall Olympiad Closing Ceremony is coming up, there's dance prac almost everyday.
I love dance, but sometimes I just wish there's more time for me to study.
its 5am and I have to wake up in 3 hours time.
Crazy, but I keep telling myself I'm strong enough to take it.
So many things to do, so little time.
Its hard to smile when there's so little so smile for.
Just this period, too much troubles. Concerns. Ambitions.
Pray things will work out. And now I need to sleep!
say hahahahaha
Sunday, January 30, 2011 8:06 PM
today is a high high day!
learnt the choreo for my fav song and felt soooo shiok~
its mostly old school hip hop style. I like!
speaking of dance, I went to a rehearsal for GLEE(!) flashmobs thats gonna be happening around Spore soon.
IT WAS AWESOME FUN!
hahahaha, sucha pity I wasn't from studio wu tho. If not I could learn more parts.
but ohwells, still enjoyed myself. Met my friend Jill there (:
Super full now. Ate korean food just now after my dance.
two big dishes, caramel tea and rice chips on the house sommor!
Yummmmmmms :D
my ankle's healing. it still hurts a little when I pressed it.
but mostly its okay. today gina sf and an an told me not to dance so hard hahahaha their expressions are really funny. I have cute friends!
time to bathe, practice dance abit and then study.
school's officially starting and even tho I dread it, I hafta switch back to mugging mode.
I hope I get selected as ogl for FOC!
I danced in the canteen in front of everybody as part of the audition wth right hahahaha
OK ANNYEONG~
camping for stars
Friday, January 28, 2011 8:52 PM
not literally.
but its super troublesome, hope the electives I got in the end turn up good. :)
Dyed my hair, supposed to be copper red but became brownish instead.
with a hint of copper.
one day, im gonna dye it till its full copper/orange brown or blonde!!!!
omggg can't believe I actually finally DARED to do it. thought about it for a damn long time already.
Just ended dance practice in hall.
would have been another awesome session if not for some troubling thoughts in my head.
thought it was not gonna affect me, AND IT WONT (i'm good at that) but im just gonna rant here cuz I find it absurd.
first we're all fine and friends and all, then suddenly its like im invisible or sth.
I dont know what the heck you heard or what I did but it MAKES NO SENSE.
instead of finding out anything or hear my side of view (in which I assume you heard things for which i dunno what), you judge me
and that's after being my friend for so long.
coward.
don't expect me to go crawling and begging to ask what's wrong.
cause I wont. grow up.
update
Tuesday, January 25, 2011 10:45 PM
update! "first day of school" again. Yr 1 Sem 2! (: Doesnt feel like it though, just felt very neutral and relaxed. Can't believe time passed just like this.
so many things happened.
anyway, even though I absolutely dreaaaaaded going back to school, I must say it feels real good being around with friends and laughing at lame jokes. makes school so much less boring.
hahaha
Sprained my ankle while walking down the stairs few days ago, thought two steps is one step.
what a way to start school right, ahahha.
but its getting better already, last night it hurt so much I could barely walk. :(
luckily it wasnt that serious or else I wouldn't be able to attend all my dance practices!
Had a public performance outside ngee ann city recently.
we performed kpop songs such as hoot hello jumping and a remix of famous korean songs.
can't even begin to describe how hard we tried to practice.
cramming sessions the whole week! rushing to and fro, and for me it was really really tiring but I enjoyed the whole experience.
I think it sounds sick in a way (haha) but being able to have this vision of doing well and make yrself proud, makes me very happy.
it also made me realise how much I love dancing. :)
I'm typing all these with a sense of skepticism cause I know blogger kinda hates me and have this tendency to just un-save everything I want to post. I DUNNO WHY
hahaha.
note to self: you're in a (relatively) good place right now. some things may not go as planned, but they will work out. somehow. don't procrastinate. keep moving ahead. and stop having suppers anymore I mean it.
hahahha kbye :)
can't nobody stop us now
Friday, October 22, 2010 3:42 PM
All's not well. not the very least. and blogger sucks, my whole long post before this got deleted for no reason at all. as if I will have the patience or even the time to type everything out again.
sometimes I just want to watch him dance the whole day and forget about all the shit thoughts that's on my mind right now.
not used to being like this. but gonna keep it to myself to see how long I can bear. or overcome it.
cause honestly, nobody's gonna be there for you anyway.
P.S on a lighter note, I finally conquered Lucifer!!!! the dance choreography (as evidently seen above) is real challenging and manly so I had to channel my inner manliness. hahahaha but I had a fun time learning it, like how I felt for my other dances too. :) can't wait for the next one!
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saturday, july 18th, 2009.
Michael Jackson, King of Pop
If I were to write this post one week ago I wouldn't have got past the first few lines, without crying so badly.
Admittedly, the news of his passing did not bothered, much less saddened me because my impression of him was vague and as a child I wasn;t exposed to any of this songs or videos, just news from the press every now and then. Till a few days after his death. I went on Youtube and before I knew it I was clicking videos after videos, watching and in awe of this man who not only served to entertain, but strived to serve the community with his enormous heart. And as I watched on and knew more, so much more about what he've been through his life, emotions started pouring in. And when I least expected it, tears started to come. I was never his fan, but now I regret not being one. It is not just one of those idol craze or whatever no, it was true sincere admiration for his works and humanitarianism that touched me, that made me look upon him as a role model.
Its hard to believe that since the media had portrayed him as some wacko freak, paedophile, child molester..etc. but may I say, BULLSHIT. he is none of that sort. Other than being the greatest entertainer of the time and coming up with the most original dance moves that many stars tried hard (but pale in comparison in my opinion) to imitate, Micheal Jackson shares the love he has, especially to children, to people around him. He was a philanthropist, donating millions of dollars to the record 39 charities he supported, and raising more through his own Heal the World Foundation. He built NeverLand Ranch, complete with amusement parks, fun rides, a place where children dreamed of going for fun and laughter. From young, Michael Jackson had a childhood very different from others, where had to perform at a very young age. When he made mistakes, his father used to beat him, and not only with a belt.
To make up for his lost childhood, Michael had always adored children and he himself is somehow like a child trapped in an adult body (watch his documentary, ignore the stupid bastard interviewer who was plain bias and selfish to see that such a nature still exists in a man so great he just had to bring him down. shall not waste time elaborating on this backstabbing ass because he's simply not worth it. If you're interested, watch the documentary Living with Michael Jackson on youtube. I could'nt get past to the last few parts because I got so fed up with his narrow-mindedness and ignorance that I closed the window). So back to the point. Michael Jackson brought orphans to NeverLand, where they play freely in the theme parks and find joy and laughter, which he himself derive more than anyone else' from the happy looks on their faces. Children were invited for sleepovers at his place, because it was safe, secure. But when news of him being a child paedophile arose after being charged by one of the kids who slept in his room, he ended up paying millions of dollars aside from being publicly humiliated and disgraced. because he did nothing disgraceful of that sort. because a few years later the kid owned up that it was his parents who made him to do, succumbed to the temptation of money, something which Micheal Jackson do not lacked. The father was tape-recorded discussing his intention to pursue charges, where he said, "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever ... Michael's career will be over". It was painful. Yet Michael still persisted, years later, in bringing less fortunate children to NeverLand, because that was more important to him. Even though the pain and hurt he had gone through had probably never healed. His strength is one of the reasons why I admire him so much.
Then there was another incident, this time of him 'dangling' his baby over the window. 'omg he's crazy he wants to throw the baby down!!!!' maybe that's what it seemed like on tv and on papers, but what they didn't show is the crowd of fans below the hotel he's staying, yelling his name and wanting to also see his baby. So Michael showed them his baby, his hands wrapped under his baby's arms so tight and pulled him back as fast as he could. But what did the viewers see? A slowed-down version of him apparently dangling his baby in mid-air like a bad father. Its ignorance if people believed he was going to actually throw his own baby down the building. And at that time, I was one of the ignorant ones. I remembered looking at the pictures on some gossip magazine and felt slightly freaked out. But now I realise how much he loved his children, and how hard he tried to protect them from the media. And again, all these negative press and biasness probably was too overwhelming....how much pain can a person take? we would never know because we're not him, its hard to understand. But maybe all these people will leave him alone now, since he's already gone.
I bought The Essential Michael Jackson cd, a compilation of hit songs by him. My dad and I watched his concerts and performances and music videos and we were more than in awe, in fact I think thats an understatement. Newfound respect and admiration for the man who was so creative and original, who dared to do things not commonly seen, creating dance steps while he sang at those times when most singers just stood there and sung. He thought of challenging and exciting music videos where people had never seen the injection of extra footage to create a kind of story. And not to mention those crazy vocals, coordinated dance moves, the famous moonwalk (I never get tired of it) and this amazing 45degree tilt he does which simply blows my mind away. It was all his signature style, the gloves, the crotch-grabbing whatever. Every single performance was done in class and so much more. He was an inspiration to people over the world, different races, and especially to African-Americans. He was an icon and also their pride.
I can rattle on and on because there's too many things about him that are truly inspiring and simply awesome but sometimes words just cant fully express it. And yes maybe I do seem a little bias but this is what I truly feel. My only regret is that I have and will never get the chance to attend one of his mind-blowing concerts and be one of those lucky fans who felt the presence of Michael Jackson, the most successful entertainer of all time, the King Of Pop.
'Smile, even though your heart is aching.'
This is one of the lyrics from his favourite song 'Smile', written by Charlie Chaplin and was sung during his memorial.
I remembered someone said something like this during the memorial, 'Even though we need him here, but I guess God needed him more'. Even though we miss him so much, Heaven is probably the place he needs to be, away from any pain, suffering or cruelty. (rhymes!) He has already achieved so much and left behind a wonderful legecy that will pass down to generations after generations.
Thank you Michael.
